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:D not bad. every symbol (i think) on the keyboard :)


today was alright.... in fact it was kinda fun.
cant remember much though. oh yeah first off: im sitting out in isolation now! right at the end of the second row. i miss chermy! not that fiona's boring. just that she's usually facing mar n talking to her. oh well
whingeing aside :)

lemme see. oh yeah ran 8(? 9?) rounds with and without mar today. long story. some slightly weird stuff went down. which i dont know anything about and will refrain from inquiring into (Happy everyone? :D )

*a plastic bag aint much i noe. just my way of showing that i DO think of you and want to be able to help you when possible. also that i MOST DEFINITELY do not hate you :)

so yeah. there was PE. oh yeah pullups are improving again!! good good good.

Fiona: CS 1.6 sounds wayyyyyy cool! i wanna try the shield. sounds fucking wicked. thanks for telling me abt it. even if miss ho probably has started thinking too much AGAIN. whatever!

so yeah after PE there was Econs lecture (nothing to say there!) and then there was M4M. now here i do have a gripe. that Joyce girl is quite a bitch. dont fucking roll your eyes at me BEHIND my back bitch! do it to my face so that i can see you do it and plunge my hand thru the layers of fat that protect your heart, rip it out and throw it out the window! wtF. well anyway. i beat her hands down for the mock GP paper it turns out. she got 71 compared to my 77. so there IS hope for the promos. thank God :) (yeah it means a lot to me. hard to explain)

after school we (that's mar, cindy, chermy, victor and i) managed to squeeze into mar's car and went over to her place, supposedly to walk her dogs. however that task eventually fell only to chermy mar and vic. cindy and i stayed in bed to watch Enemy at the Gates and EAT!! thanks lots mar for feeding us and letting us use your room :D. man im telling u the fucking burger is GOOD. (plus its always a hilarious source of humour: picture Victor trying to eat it and failing pretty badly :D ). so then we slacked arnd blah blah blah.... cindy and I thot the 3 of them were MIA. turns out they had a whole bunch of errands etc etc ad nauseum.

didnt get too much study done. did have a bit of a tussle with victor tho. kinda fun :)


which reminds me! Pauline Chua was late for class today. so Chermy said "Hey victor where's your wife?" to which the esteemed KOP (i get that rite?) said he didnt noe or something. i quipped "But lesbian marriages arent allowed in Singapore!" :D to his credit Victor responded VERY quickly. he got it straight away (cmon i noe some ppl who wld take FOREVER to get it). he proceeded to pummel me n stuff la. kinda fun.
though i'd record this for posterity :)

Chermy u are a PATHETIC puncher!!!!!! :)

**rewriting that crap: hope it helped some :)


im kinda lost abt some things. i must admit though events that transpired late last night served to make me particularly elated. its always nicer when things settle down and begin to sort themselves out. thanks. we still gotta fulfil that deal sometime though.

just sad that once things happen its virtually impossible to go back to the way stuff was before. one of life's inevitabilities i guess.


woulda been nice to stay a lil longer today and have it out in person with that pryer. not to be today i guess.


newflash: the EZ link card is good for something in particular! it solves the "im getting off too you bastard" problem on public transport! lemme explain: y'noe how sometimes you're on a bus (for those of u who are fucking rich and hence have never taken one, they're those loooooong things on the road that say things like "SBSTransit" and "TransIsland" on the side. ahhhhhh. make sense now? :D ) and ur stop is the next one but ppl arnd u dont noe you're getting off and so they push past u when actually YOU ARE HEADING IN THE SAME DAMN DIRECTION TOO? well the EZ link card provides the answer! (God i sound like a salesman) simply strech ur card out towards to machine. Or, if not in the vicinity of the machine, wave it arnd desperately and mutter in Hokkien. ppl will get the msg im sure.

this DOES, however, mean that any potential stalkers on the bus you are on will have that much more time to prepare to get off at the same stop as you. but considering stalkers go for ATTRACTIVE ppl, i spose most of you reading this wont need to worry abt this problem anw now will you :)
dont u just hate me??? :D

admittedly, there arent stalkers on every bus. in fact there hardly are ANY. but thats not the point is it.


black is a colour
that i hardly wear
brown is the shade
of my wavy hair
blue is the pigment
i wish my eyes were
i may wear some leather
i'll never wear fur.
i dont noe wats happened
but things will improve.
or so i hope madly.
hope things will go smooth.
hope things'll work out
and be like before
or if thats impossible
make it something more.


whither have the dreams all gone?
not one i see before me.
"thither, dreamer!" u reply.
and then you all abhor me.
it must needs be i find these dreams
for life is often dead.
now THERE is a dichotomy
that will mess with your head.
it behoves me, nonetheless
to find myself some more
a greater measure of excitement
so there's more in store.
who knows where i'll discover it?
p'raps i never will
but even if i never do
i'll keep hunting for it still.


ya'll take care! 5 days till promos.

thanks again for relieving me. its greatly appreciated. (wonder if you'll get this?)



Out out out out!

man its been a LONG day

somehow the slow dreary coldish ones can be the worst cant they?

rather.... interesting though.


Alright. First off: General Paper was absolute dope. it was SOOOOOOOOO easy! (note for the future: This feeling i have of "Goddam the paper was easy!" has no relevance whatsoever to the kind of marks i actually get. bear that in mind ok :D ) yeah it was really really smooth. wrote abt crime prevention in the essay bit.... managed to get in Burgess' A Clockwork Orange (mar u still have it!), Huxley's Brave New World (props to Victor) and Ben Elton's High Society (read it, everyone. absolutely though provoking). the more books the merrier i say! and the compre was simple la.

cheer up. you'll be fine even if you were falling asleep during the paper :)


which reminds me: Exo said i was being a fucking poseur coz i was sleeping intentionally for the first 1/2 hour of each paper. spose he's right :D

fahy came up and very politely asked me if i was ok and everything... kinda like "Cmon you're the best pupil here! prove it!" kinda thing. dont ask why coz i have no idea. the man doesnt even teach me GP! s'pose he's just very insightful :)


yeah yeah stab me already.


so wadya noe? im no longer pissed at the person i hated so much in that "Betrayal" entry. my anger found quite another target yesterday... after which it just decided "what the hell" and completely left my mind! the end result being that im no longer angry at anyone. whatever!!

+spose minimal contact is better than nothing+


well everyone SAID to ask so i asked! like wtf. cant go right can i.


the tension today to me at least was so thick you could have cut it with a knife. goddamn fucking hilarious if you ask me (which you didnt. but im telling you anyway. besides it seems these days that asking ppl questions only serves to make them stop talking to you.)

fuck it la.



What's it going to be then, eh?

so this's the way its going down. blocked off and ignored. fair enough i say!

although im still puzzled as to what i actually DID. i'd ask, but you'd just lie it seems

onto more exciting things because, frankly speaking, i cant care anymore.

well not quite. just tt at this moment i cant is all

i must away! i must away!
before the coming of the day
for with the passing of Night's flower
comes the fearsome Day-lord's power.
whither all the darkness went
so shall all Night's dreams be sent.


i kinda like that.

well lets see. i've had a fairly productive day.

covered Paper 1. i'll hafta go over it a few more times of course. but i cld pass if it was tomorrow which's wat counts.
so thats good
and i did some econs. which is DOUBLY good

watched Mickey Blue Eyes. its a really good movie. Hugh Grant doing the Italian accent is hilarious! :)

GP tomorrow i say again. less nervous now though. read a whole bunch of model essays. i must say, most of them sucked!


exciting times.... who knows what could happen from here? anything could develop/grow/be extrapolated.

gotta be thankful for one thing tho. i was very pissed with someone. now that seems so petty. so today hastnt been all bad then

funny how ppl always say they'll tell you when something's wrong and they dont (no actually this ISNT for you. really.) spose its one thing to SAY you will and quite another ball game to actually DO it.
although i must say the present response is about as far as one can get from telling the person (THIS is)

i hope everyone makes it to school tomorrow! a lil worried exo and terence will be late.


still praying for everyone i've said i'll pray for! and more besides.


apparently i paint a pathetic picture of myself when [I] talk. very well then. of course if i did otherwise you lot'd blast me too. make up your fucking minds.


fuck being nice and veiled all the goddamn fucking time in blogs. that's all im saying. evidently the gloves are off.

that sounds a lot meaner than its intended to be. but take it however you want it. ("I dont take it/the way you like to give it" Remember that? "Who the hell are you" by that aussie grp..... who was it? oh yeah Madison Avenue thats it.


quite heartening! someone recognised a quote.


"when one pays a visit one does so for the purpose of wasting other people's time, not one's own."

where to start?

for that matter where to end?

oh well.


first off, im really glad i did the right thing. i WAS going to do it anyway (there's no other way i clda talked it out is there?) but i was jumped to it. not to worry. next time just have a little more faith in me alright?



admittedly that's somewhat of a challenge sometimes.


so yeah im really happy abt that.

*i must apologise to Kristin (even tho you hardly ever come in here. hey its the thought that counts eh? :D ) it was uncalled for. my apologies.*


+thanks for being so decent abt the whole thing+


ooook. today's entry isnt making an awful lotta sense is it? oh well. fuck off why dont you :D


im kinda worried abt GP tomorrow. a small screw-up will mean that i dont get the GP prize. *Victor - best of luck to you with trying to beat me. since i beat you by 10 marks the previous test God knows you're gonna need it!! :D
dont you just want to stab me :) oh well. to quote "its all in the name of good fun". i must remember that.

thank you very much. you've made the prospect of today a much more enjoyable one.
its always nice to noe what one is and what one isn't allowed to do. rules make things much easier.

(that shoulda made it obvious that im talkin to you. heeeeeeeelllllllllloooooooo?? :D )


so yeah. i've had a good start to my day. measuring my start as the first interaction with ppl outside of my family. coz i've been up SINCE EIGHT studying.

the promos are the most FUCKING STRESSFUL things ever. NOTHING comes close to this. i'm telling ya'll straight. its ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY TERRIBLE. nothing comes close.


btw: ur part of that list of ppl i mentioned that only has exo on it. that probably didnt come across in the conversation. sure sometimes it dont seem like that. but nonetheless..... yeah :)


what else?

y'noe how u can sometimes be really worried abt something.. and then the person/thing who/which is causing the worry tells/otherwise informs you that everything is ok? sometimes you REALLY DO shake with relief. kinda freaky i'm telling u. but yeah its a thoroughly enjoyable sensation.


*seems some of my observations about people's natures are remembered!! i'm honoured to have them reproduced.*


for those of you who are wondering how im going to follow up to yesterday's angst and anger, i remind you that THIS IS NOT A FUCKING SOAP OPERA. if you're looking for those kinda kicks, ur a sick bastard. but that aside, look elsewhere please!

that about does it for today. my plans are NOT to step outta the house till church. get some solid study and practice done. HOPEFULLY i'll be productive.

^for everyone who i've ever said i'd pray for: i still am! so keep hope. things'll get better/your health'll improve/you'll cheer up/whatever it is that im praying for will show signs of progress (threw that last one in there to cover everything :D ) take heart^

+truly amazing thou art! never fails to blow me away. how you do it i do not noe. thanks again+

and now for a quote eh?

lemme see....

speaking of which, so far NO ONE has left a tag identifying any of my quotes! im not really surprised though :) arrogant prick that i am.

here's an easy one


If it were done, 'tis well 'twere done quickly.

i feel i've been completely and utterly betrayed
(no this isnt you. not at all.)

what daniel's said so often seems to be true. people act all friendly and sympathetic arnd you and turn into little bitches when you're not there. what the fuck is wrong with these people.


interestingly it seems that im not alone in discovering the fallacy that is friendship. having fun now arent we everyone?

to think i trusted you! guess i fuck up more than i expected. well i'll certainly never look at you the same way again.

strangely enough im not even that pissed. just kinda numb. it sort of hasnt really hit me yet. but it will im guessing. i wanted to stab you heart today and make you eat it.


to indulge in a little self pity: seems like an awful number of my friends have done mean things to me. even you have once or twice! altho admittedly you felt bad afterwards when you told me. (yes i am thinking of one person in particular. but it really applies to you too. and you. and you. but the real you that im talking about shld noe who i mean. think addresses :D ) so yeah. so far everyone i've treasured has turned out to have some flaws. which is, of course, to be expected. but this new case has just blown me away.

thinking back, there has been evidence of a certain two-sidedness to you. im surprised i hadnt noticed yet. not to brag, but it normally doesnt take me this long to spot absolute fucking excuses for humans like you. spose this way i'll be on my guard for the next one.

coz there WILL be more. i have no doubt abt that.



for today:
I got fucking 77% for my GP mock test. that is a KICK ASS mark in my book. fuck anyone who says otherwise. i got 39/50 for compre and 38/50 for essay. to top it off the marker wrote "Excellent read" at the end!!!! now THAT is brilliant. *Victor, i really wasnt being an arrogant bastard! sorry if it came across that way. altho i must remind you, it wasnt ME who laughed at someone's chinese mark :D


kinda vibey today... every day seems to be really. im hoping stuff's ok with *you and that i didnt contribute in any way. admittedly i seem to be contributing less and less which is a very good thing in my book!


how the FUCK could you do this to me?
"I'm sorry!!!!"
how the FUCK could you do this to me?


that's it for today.



Digital watches are a pretty neat idea

i am INORDINATELY happy!! :D

there's really no reason why. at least no reason that i can put my finger on (this may, of course, be because my fingers are otherwise occupied with typing this entry. nevertheless.) i've just been bouncy!


i must admit, the day didnt seem like it was going to be so cheery at the beginning. seemed to pick up some nasty vibes. but that either worked itself out or was very cleverly hidden. congrats for the former and kudos for the latter (it was pretty damn well done i must say! IF of course it was done at all. i shall not start :D )


i love you
you love me
so for fuck's sake set me free
let me out of this country
and in OZ i'll forever be

nah not alluding to anything there. just a lil bitta nonsensical rhyme.


Note: Everyone please try and stay healthy. everyone seems to be getting sick.


now WHY am i so happy? i havent had an especially good day. it hasnt been an especially bad one either. i just feel pretty light hearted.

this feeling is usually followed the next day by being moody n depressed. shall try to buck that.

*im hoping things'll slowly get better (i dunno if "get better" is even the right phrase. wth y'noe wat i mean. keepin my fingers crossed. i'd keep my legs crossed too if it didnt squash things im gonna need some time :D*


there continuously seems to be hope for school. yesterday's entry sounds like i was thinking about giving up. today i feel like i dont need to worry any more at all! its a GOOD feeling im telling you.
history was good for me today. i think it wasnt good for pretty much everyone else tho. *i'm really sorry to all the ppl who were standing during JY's remedial. i was trying to tell ya'll but she saw... felt really really bad. sorry again*


a couple of things have sparked my interest. just what IS going down? it will be interesting to watch and see what happens.

assuming of course it happens within the next few weeks. who knows where we'll all be next year.


where IS everyone? i wonder i wonder i wonder.... can they all be doing their outlines? incidentally i've done mine already. a nice safe 9 points. dont know if i'll bother to finish. i really feel no incentive to considering she just bitches anyway... regardless of whether our work is good (which, admittedly, it usually isnt. but still, telling Terence not to study any more today really was a bit much. the poor guy really is trying)


"Oh no, not again."

thank God for small things.

since 5 this morning i've been worrying abt something. and i only found out i didnt need to worry after school was over! thank God i say again. at least my ego isnt THAT big :D

-wink- to those in the know

and a "hahaha bloody ha and up yours" to those who dont :)

try this out for size all of you : Everything takes time. Time takes everything

if it doesnt quite make sense think of what i mean by "time takes everything". in the end we all bow to time. interesting.


i feel its necessary to put this in:
"Nowadays everybody's a comedian, even the weather girls and continuity announcers. We laugh at everything. Not intelligently anymore, not with sudden shock, astonishment, or revelation, just relentlessly and meaninglessly. No more rain showers in the desert, just mud and drizzle everywhere, occasionally illuminated by the flash of paparazzi."
- Douglas Adams

too goddam fucking true. im often amazed these days at the things people call funny. how can a mere mouthing of childish sounds in retaliation (due to the fact that the person cant, for the life of him/her, think of anything INTELLIGENT and BITING to say) be funny? true humour is a rapidly disappearing commodity. no, i make no claims to be the Messiah of true humour, but instead to be a recogniser of the plague of "humourous" people who are anything but. people i've seen who are supposed to have a good sense of humour are often just immature imitators and mimics of others. nothing more. gone is the sharp wit of Black Adder, the sarcasm of Monty Python, the true originality of Ben Elton and Douglas Adams in day-to-day society. instead we are left with people who i honestly think are often the least fucking funny things on the face of this forsaken earth.


and now to life.


i miss so many things. here's a rough list:
i miss Australia. I miss sunshine that is bright without being too hot to be comfortable. i miss the closeness i had. i miss the relaxed nature of maris stella. i miss sitting together in lectures and just laughing like hell at the stupidest things. i miss the man i met once in New York who was damn nice and the courtesy he represented. I miss Douglas Adams and wonder why he left Earth so young. i miss walking thru orchard and stumbling my way thru conversations. being sorta in sync so that we say the same damn things (i think we even sang the same song once!) reliably every day. i miss too many fucking things to list, to be honest.


wat the fuck is going to happen to me i wonder. i really do.

sometimes i think... maybe. y'noe just maybe. there's that song right? "coulda woulda shoulda" its not much of a song, but that line kinda expresses missed opportunities. there's so much i could have done. so much i would change. hmmmmmm... something to reflect on.


i've noticed something.


wat did u think i was going to tell u lot wat it is i've noticed? dream the fuck on!

cant remember when was the last time i was really happy. surprisingly enough the words of another now apply most aptly to me. i find myself putting up a front of happiness in school more often than not. oh well. mustnt mope around

things are fucked up well and truly, and i dont even know why


how DID things get to this point? its rather strange. it'd be quite easy to say a number of things here which would lose me probably all of my friends. but i shall not coz its just the mood talking i noe.
or is it?

see there it goes again.


The Salmon of Doubt is GOOD. i've finished.


somehow it seems leaving CJC might not be such a bad thing after all. there'd be so many opportunities out there y'noe. of course i'd miss everyone a lot.. but it wouldnt be a TOTALLY bad thing y'noe? which is heartening. not that i WANT to get expelled of course.


replies are nice when they happen. sadly they're not right now.


its funny the things that change and how often one notices them. i can remember a time not too long ago (although it grows longer ago with every passing day. soon it'll be AGES ago and it'll still seem like yesterday to me) when everything was often a cloud of bliss thru which bitches like Damo flitted thru only occasionally like red bolts of angry lightning. times when the end of school was a good time coz it meant going to town, and all the accompanying joys that came with that. times when i used to take the mrt from somerset :D now THOSE were some fun days. but it wasnt just that (altho that was a large part of it). life just seems to have lost a large part of its vigour. time was when going to school was something i looked forward to. now its usually dreary and boring.


Limp Bizkit's new logo is really pretty nice. check it out if u want.


*i wonder how things'll be a month or two from now?*

im thinking (dangerous activity i know. dont worry it wont become a habit) maybe i should give up on EVERYTHING (see? it really is scary, thinking). the promos are fucked up im telling u. the stress just builds and builds. and just when u think it can build no more, like and HDB block which seems to continuously be built higher by the government (we're currently aiming for 50 storeys right?) it builds up more. when will it end?


i return to a question i posted here a while back: how closely does what one feels for one's friends reflect how one's friends feel towards oneself? i think the answers would be most surprising. and most likely quite disturbing too. but no this has nothing to do with anyone. its a general statement thats all.


it drives me mad with pain to see it. its sort of like how when an animal gets caught in a trap it gnaws its limb off to get out y'noe? i feel like if that were an option i'd be biting bits off everywere just to make it STOP.

and there i go whining again. incessant isnt it.


to noe that one is now nothing is a rather humiliating experience. i recommend it for exactly no one.

all the little niceties are gone gone GONE!


if i could have just one small thing
we all noe what it would be
World peace of course! and love all round
and happiness and stuff for me
"ah" u say. "Happiness"
"how hard to quantify"
actually, no. its just that
its something i cant buy

no amount of money can win her
and nothing will make her mine
there's no way i'll forget her
and for her i'll ever pine

but to those who say "let go already"
please noe that i HAVE
i never even held her
How the FUCK can i let go then you bunch of gibbering idiots?


yeah there's a message in there. well hidden as usual (at least i HOPE it isnt glaringly obvious )

there's all this anger flowing thru my system. God knows why (actually He DOES know why. but thats not the point). i just want it to go AWAY.

sitting in econs lecture is pure HELL.



Everything is getting nicely out of control.

you dont even know me
and yet strangely u owe me
for all the times you've "so??'d" me
times you wld a hoe be
and yet you want to own me
i say Hey bitch! Blow me!

_______________________________
i must away i must away!
for nighttime ends
and its demise is Day
day is when the dreams all die.
when little hopes no longer fly
for in the fires of Apollo's gaze
nothing lives. such is Day's
great power
all things cower
in the daytime
but at night things
can come alive
in the dark things
start to strive
to be heard and felt
and to manifest
to be above
all the petty rest
to be HEARD!
and so they shall be
on a night such as this.

----Tim----


*you'll never ever know how much it hurts just to see*


oh yeah some of you may remember that lil thing i wrote that started out with "having once attained such lofty heights myself". anyone? well anyway it DID mean something. i wrote that with an express purpose in mind... one which struck me as blindingly obvious to anyone with eyes to see and half a brain. maybe not though. think about it n see if u can come up with something.


A Salmon of Doubt: man its fucking brilliant. for those who dont know (everyone here im guessing) its the most recent published book by Douglas Adams (posthumously published, actually, as he has most tragically passed away at the unfulfilled age of 49) the guy who wrote The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, a pantheon of absolute wonders. the book is wonderful. typical Adams style. the man did not deserve to die at such a young age. he had so much left in him. get this: the front cover says "The Salmon of Doubt" and underneath in smaller font: "Hitchhiking the Galaxy One Last Time". that is bloody poignant. makes me want to cry for real. only someone who's read and appreciated the books can understand what i mean. and not everyone can appreaciate him either.


interesting point: I noticed P.G. Wodehouse today. apparently he's regarded as a Musician of the English Language by people worldwide. he's on a level with Shakespeare, Keats, Chaucer and Milton. now THAT is a most venerable list of people, besides which any author would be exhilirated to be standing. so i'll be reading him in the weeks to come


++Limp Bizkit's Results May Vary comes out tomorrow! smackin' it down motherfucker. not sure if i'll get it straight away, but definitely within the week.++


why do i find myself
even now. even still
yearning and burning inside
never sated. never filled
why does it seem
like i'll never be whole
why does it burn
in the very depths of my soul
i find it behoves me
to wonder and ask
why even now I
hide with a mask
how it sears the fibre
and fabric of my being
how it burns


poetry is without a doubt one of the best ways to express yourself.


got reminded today that ppl are still in here that shldnt be. would you FUCK OFF and get a LIFE you lil COCKSUCKING BITCH/ES? (plurality intended). i HAVE to get arnd to changing my addy. just havent thot of a new one yet.


fuck talking abt today. there wasnt anything wrong with it. just a boring day.


i dunno where im going to be next year. should be interesting to live and find out doncha think?


why are relationships such a worrying thing? even other people's relationships affect oneself. how fucked up is that? not that there's any relationship im unhappy with. dont get me wrong.


*hey you? how we doing now? :D *


where are all the interesting ppl online man? i've studied my mind out and right now i want some FUN conversation. and i can only get my fix from about two ppl currently. damn


Houston we have contact.


im feeling kinda strange today as u may be able to tell. i really felt like beating people up today in the afternoon. no reason. just felt fucking pissed and goddam tired all of a sudden. way weird.

oh yeah tried a Snakebite yesterday! for those who dont know its Kahlua and vodka. the two dont mix y'see? so u get the vodka all clear on the bottom and the kahlua on top. kinda cool. n u gotta drink it pretty much straight up so they both sorta slide down to u. its really cool. hit me pretty strong tho. thats probably just me. Aaron mixed it up for me! he just got back this week... so i went over to his place yesterday. oh yeah he does a MEAN pina colada. sweeeeeeet man im telling u. plus he's got all kinds of stories (yes stories. y'noe wat kind im talking abt :D ) to share abt wat he did back home in the States. quite eyeopening.

Singapore is damn sheltered ya'll noe that. it really is.


Can't you see what I'm trying to say?
Don't you see that you're in pain?
You're in pain
Can't you see what I'm trying to say?



then again no you probably cant. my pain seems to be a totally ridiculous thing to most ppl. but props to them as recognise the song.


latest word: Dro. go find out wat it means ya'll.


^my dad's birthday tomorrow. hmmmm^


History is bunk

+please dont cry. things'll get better even if they seem fucked up+


yeah.



anyhow.... had fun yesterday!
(yesterday was saturday. uh huh)

so anyhow. went to school for that econs thing right? didnt do much... had the test n left. actually:
short aside: Mr Leong is a really nice guy. i shan't say anything but yeah he really is. kinda feel bad actually. but yeah he rocks (to use the disgusting cliche for want of a better term)
the test was alright. but i mean for real who woulda give a shit even if it sucked?

after that we went to.... can ya guess? TOWN.

had breakfast at Mac's. unusually large crowd actually. we had the usual: mar cindy cher vic fio and me but we also had kristin, nicole, daniel and broc (yes broc! dont remember EVER being in town with her. she probably has la. just that i dont remember. old age y'noe) so yeah it was kinda fun!

we saw Vic (mar's vic frm vjc). must say i was a little disappointed. sure she's cute enough. but i definitely don't think she's the most chio outta mar's lil group. i definitely reckon sab grace and mar herself are better lookers than vic. no offense to anyone who thinks otherwise tho! and that butch. man she's such a GUY! fucking scary

after that went to heeren. mar n cindy went back to mar's place (man to have a house just opp Heeren is fucking sweeeeet) n i stayed with Fio n chermy (that means everyone else had left. DUH) wondered arnd. they weren't doing nothing so i went to mar's place too. sorta did nothing for a while (i DID sleep with cindy though :D) then we went to walk the dogs. *Rusty's still not as bad as i woulda thot. maybe she's still shy :)

on the way down to the carpark, we met a FUCKING BITCH OF A WOMAN. i reckon she's frm San Fran. definitely American. anyhow we led the dogs into the lift right? and she fucking said "Are you allowed to bring DOGS into the lift?" in this DAMN FUCKING bitchy voice. i mean the answer's bloody obvious isnt it u little COCKSUCKING CUNT!? YOU'RE in the lift aint you? so anw we didnt say nothing. i turned arnd to get anther look at her n she said "do you have a prrroblem?" (extra R's are intentional). i swear i felt like telling her to get down on her knees and bite me right there n then. the annoying fact that it'd prob get mar into trouble and that i was in school U n all stopped me. plus there were other ppl in the lift.
BUT IF I EVER SEE YOU AGAIN AND I RECOGNISE YOU, YOU MOTHERFUCKING EXCUSE FOR A WORM, YOU'D BETTER FUCKING WATCH OUT BEFORE I RIP YOUR HEART OUT AND MAKE YOU EAT IT. GROVEL BITCH. AND I HOPE YOU FUCKING REMEMBER MY FACE TOO. BECAUSE IT'LL BE THE LAST THING YOU SEE IF WE MEET AGAIN.

Yeah remembering it is making me feel all razrez again.


so we got to the car.. bitched abt her the whole trip to Gardens pretty much.

we walked... everything was kinda nice actually! damp n misty... not too humid. definitely not hot either.
but mar fell down!! that wasnt no fun. a nice gory patch on her leg, a slice on her right (?) hand just above the wrist (which i still think is damn cool :D ) and a scratch on her left (?? again) pinkie. that wasnt fun at all.
although i must say she took it very well.
i still say you shoulda taken off your shirt to staunch the blood flow :D


say what you like ya'll

i do hope its better. try out that thing i was talking abt with Michael Tan. its worth a go :)


ppl are fucking hilarious y'noe. some especially are so OTT. fucking irritating. i mean, fair dinkum, a dog isnt gonna KILL YOU. even if u ARE a muslim. deal with it!
and DON'T fucking say "cannot la" because its a BLOOODY PARK. you should EXPECT some GODDAM DOGS.


anw....... letting go of the angst :)


*today's entry is kinda long. im sorry. i'll try to keep it fun*

oh yeah i'll rip your heart out.
damn right you bitch i will
i'll knock your fucking lights out.
and your guts i'll spill

you watch the way you're talking
coz i'm right here y'noe.
so u better watch your little mouth
you motherfucking hoe

you've let me down u bitch
i always liked the States
i RESPECTED you lot, but now
a bad case of the hates

is what is setting in.
and its coz of fucking YOU
damn right i gotta problem
You, bitch. hell i should sue.

i do noe, though,
there are better people out there
and yes i still love America
this's just some wear and tear.

but to YOU bitch i'll this say one more time
you watch your fucking back
you really really pissed me off
as you lot say, "there's flak".



fuck man im still pissed at her. she aint worth it.

anw. saw Parousia at church. they're really good. as in REALLY. the vocalist is cute AND talented! how cool is tht? :D

i'll end it here then shall i. long enough already.



po-to-weet?

well well well? what have we here?
"my God! 'tis an Ang Moh i fear!"
"sir oh sir! sir what shall we do?"
well shoot him m'boy! what the fuck's he to you?


and that, people, is exactly what you SHOULD NOT do :)


man crack addict is a great song. settled then. ya'll shld noe how im ending today's entry :)


if u DONT you're a sadly thick-skulled dickhead. but hey no grudges for u being born dumber than me. i aint jealous.


and now to start this entry proper. let's see......


today was Friday right? yeah it was.

that means tomorrow's saturday!!

which'd NORMALLY be a good thing. sleeping in and all. but noooooooooooo (to be said in an utterly obnoxious tone of voice). we have school at 7.30! yet again i find the Singapore policy on schooling days in an entirely lamentable state. fuck

anyhow. today was really pretty long n its all generally blended into one long mess. honestly cant remember much.

*maybe things'll get better/heal. dunno which term's appropriate. i'll take the fact tt conversation still occurs as a good sign then shall I*

GP was boring. History was same old same old. Measure for Measure i dont even remember man. 'cept for the Star Wars stuff. Qui Gon Jinn is bloody cool.

Econs was...... yeah. History lecture was bleah too.

Chinese stands out. felt real bad again. the teacher got fucking pissed with us. i mean we WERE being a bunch of wankers..... story: we've owed her this assignment for two fucking weeks. so she asks for it. we all get it out(get it out -wink- :D ) and of course we havent finished it yet. so we do it. by copying, naturally. leaving her flabbergasted ("i've never taught a class like this before." translated quote). so she made us all stand. blah blah blah excetera... i ended up standing at the front facing the walll. nothing new there. but then she gave me the ol' talking to afterwards y'noe? and she was really nice (as all my teachers who've given me the talking to have been. they're all total guilt trips). said all the same stuff: i seem like a nice person... i dont look like a troublemaker... etc etc ad infinitum.

end result was that i felt really bad. aplogised twice. i really will try to talk less in Chinese. she deserves it.
if only to make up for ALL the years i havent given a toss abt it. sadly enough


yeah that's all for today really.


let's see if i can rhyme
try n make something new up
"i eat with a knife and fork
and drink outta a cup"

ok so tt's a cop out
YOU trying rhyming with "Cup"
there aint many words really.
u'll end up with "fucked up"

then again u cld try something hard
like "reciprocated"
now THERE'S a pretty nifty word.
let's see u imitate it.

im guessing u cant. its really ok.
pls dont start to cry
if EVERYONE was me,
then i wldnt make girls sigh.

would i? no i certainly wldnt.


then again i dont anyhow do i. :D fuck it.


here ya'll go:

Crack Addict
3... 2... 1...

Here we go again
Right now
Let’s go
Me and you
Toe to toe
We can rock
We can roll
Here we go again
Right now
Let’s go
Me and you
Toe to toe
We can rock
We roll

You see its one for the trouble
And two for the time
One for the trouble
And two for the time
One for the trouble
And two for the time
Come on y'all and let’s rock

Now I'm gonna full up my lungs with some butane
Turn the mic into a flame
DAMN that shit's hot
Super heavy
Built like a Chevy
and I ain't really mad at the "hey hey"
round two
you ready for a break?
you keep on talking I’m gonna
break you up something like this
full throttle
better be prepared
coming with the kick and the snare
Apocalypse now
We start the shit now
Gimme the countdown
3… 2… 1…

Here we go again
Right now
Let’s go
Me and you
Toe to toe
We can rock
We can roll
Here we go again
Right now
Let’s go
Me and you
Toe to toe
We rock
We roll

I want to throw you
A tinted face right now
Not really sure right now
Not really sure I know how
Gonna try
Gonna try
Give you piece of my mind
Gonna try
Gonna try
And I hope you don’t mind
I’m a crack addict
That’s right I’m a crack addict
You heard me I’m a crack addict
I’m addicted to crackin skulls when punks start static!
It’s time to panic
I’m addicted to crackin skulls when punks start static!
It’s time to panic
I’m addicted to crackin skulls when punks start static!

Here we go again
Right now
Let’s go
Me an you
Toe to toe
We can rock
We can roll
Here we go again
Right now
Let’s go
Me and you
Toe to toe
We can rock
We can roll
----Limp Bizkit----

YES Limp Bizkit motherfucker. they're back. album's out September 23rd. check it out ya'll. the stuff sounds good. i've sampled most of it already.

there'll be quotes from books i like everywhere these days. i'll end every entry with one unless otherwise stated. leave a tag if u recognise it. thanks!

cya'll


So it goes

"to whom much is given much is expected of"

think i got that right. anyhow: this statement is fucking true. and sadly very applicable to me.

now before u all think im arrogant (although its quite possibly too late for that) lemme explain: i have been given much. not necessarily in the way of in intelligence. but i have been given at least some there too.
basically i've been realising the last two weeks that i've wasted my whole life academically speaking. in the music arena sure i've accomplished quite a bit. but i've been a goddamn slacker ever since i started school really. n its frustrating. i gotta fix myself up. seriously i really think i can be the top of the whole fucking school (cmon it really doesnt take much)


pls dont leave this paragraph thinking im a fucking arrogant prick.


*how can i be a better friend? how can i show sincerity n all that? and above all how can i STOP being such a prick some times?*


+things are weird. so i'll try to fix that up. although i AM weird y'noe :D nah seriously i'll see what i can do. getting all business-like on ya here aint i :)+


school results have been very encouraging as of late. well to me at least. lets see:
35/50 for Lit (Othello)
10/20 for Econs MCQ (Hell ill take ANYTHING. its economics)
39(yes 39 :D )/50 for GP Comprehension (smackin it DOWN bitch huh Chermy :D )
and lastly 9 1/2/25 for History

now the last may leave some of you scratching your heads. wats so good abt an AO pass? well its top of the class again! and it means i've NEVER failed one of JY's history tests before. AND its like the 4th (?? 5th maybe) time i've been 1st or 2nd in class (yeah im gloating again. ease up a lil why don'cha) so anyhow.... im like top 2 or 3 for that lit thing, top for History, top for GP, somewhere fairly decent for Econs i reckon. its all been very encouraging. i've been totally motivated to study n all. be happy for me! :)


good quote: "when you find yourself in a hole, STOP DIGGING"

makes lotsa sense doesnt it


im really hoping i havent made a total fucking mess of something. coz it wld pain me no end to lose it. believe it or not. no faking!


where'd things all go down the fucking tube? i can remember one week that was absolutely blissful. that'll always be a bloody beautiful memory.


n before i wax aboslutely flaming sappy abt it (trust me i cld.) i'll get away frm that subject. for the moment at least.


nothing else really happened today.


oh yeah went back to Thomson Plaza! my old homeground. it really was like coming home. altho to a home which has been totally repainted. anw. the ppl at KFC still remember me. said all the usual stuff (which Victor aptly coughed loudly at) and also said i've lost weight n look very different! well its true i guess. the ppl at Bingo (the lan shop i spent 30 hours a week in during sec 4) are still the same old guys. the cleaning guy is still really nice.... he remembered me. hell even the lady at Dairy Queen is still the same! all in all it was nice to go back. enjoyed it.

then we (vic cher cindy n I) went to Fiona's place. becoming quite the haunt isnt it? props to Fio for letting us use it. went there n hid in Fio's room (well who's room were u EXPECTING? fucking EXODUS' ROOM? we were in FIONA'S GODDAMN HOUSE!) 'scuse that. as i was saying we (cindy n I) went to her room whilst the remaining ppl (thats Vic Cher and Fio. do the math dickhead. altho in this case i havent yet mentioned that Fiona came later. ok excused this time then. but BE WARNED) had tuition. *THEIR TEACHER IS FAT. I TELL NO LIES* Cindy n I had a conversation which was interesting.... but too long. the result being i didnt finish my outline. whatever.


then i came home.


DUH



^Im gonna end today with a quote frm a book. lemme noe if u noe it. same thing: leave a tag^


~im hoping i havent totally fucked things up well and truly this time. silence can be a very disturbing thing. esp after one has revealed wat a dick one is~


-it seems i have-



here's a song

One Fine Day

If I had a perfect day
I would have it start this way
Open up the fridge and have a tall boy
Yeah

Then I'd meet up with my friends
Head out to the game again
We don't even really care who wins
Now excitement seems to grow
When we're hangin' with the bro's
When we're chillin' and we pound a case of Stroh's
Now the game is cool to see
You can "High 5" on TV
Count the riot on the one two three
Operation is in sight
And the field is open wide
When you break it then you know you're still alive
If the cops don't make you pay
And you make your getaway
Then you know
That's one fine day

On that day before we're through
We could torch a car or two
Then have ourselves another tall boy
Yeah

Water hoses and batons
That's the real game that's on
I don't really give a shit who wins

I believe it's my god-given right
To destroy everything in my sight
Cause it never gets dull, it never gets old
The only thing it gets is more bold
Drinkin', fightin', going to the game
In our world it's a way to stay sane
If you're asking me
To have it my way, I'd say that's
One fine day
----OFFSPRING----


thanks to mar for lending me the album. its GOOD.


that's all i have for today. im feeling stupid again. god how many fucking times will i fuck up before i get things RIGHT.


so long, and thanks for all the fish.

i love...... to laugh!!!! ha ha ha ha ha ha
loud and long and clear.


waddup ya'll :)


as u may be able to tell im in a happy mood. yay i spose :D


everything's great. looks like things are fantastic. im perfectly content.



actually one thing sorta bugs me. it amuses me to read something. obviously someone's a lil uptight or something. much as this person protests that it doesnt matter (y'noe wat all this "this person" crap bugs me. but gotta play by the rules dont i) well once again dunno if its me. but hey sorry if it was. didnt noe i was "assuming" anything (u so very kindly put it in bold so i cldnt fail to notice it :D ) n maybe u just might be wrong abt how ppl profess to be sure of their assumptions. maybe they dont think they're "accurate" at all. but either way sorry


it just makes me think if it IS me then who's been talking y'noe wat i mean? oh well.


shant let that get to me. coz if it IS me then its really my fault anyhow isnt it :)


so.....


I got 39 outta 50 for my GP comprehension. i mean FUCK man that is a way-whacked mark! totally trippin over that. its really really REALLY good.

yeah so im boasting a lil. still..... gimme my props man.

so i failed chinese. sue me :)


wat else......


today was one of the most DREARY days ever. everyone including myself was dead tired. just one of those days i guess. still it wasnt much fun.

after school we went to town (we being mar victor chermy and I). had lunch blah blah blah...

+i'd like to take this moment to say that Come Out Swinging by Offspring is a bloody brilliant song. thanks+


after that we ditched chermy :D she wanted to go home.... wasnt feeling well n stuff i gather. get well Chermaine!
There you go. :)


so the remaining three (that'd be mar vic n me. its really quite easy u see. there were four of us right? cher mar vic n I. so u take away one frm four and it leaves you with three! amazing right? please say u get it :D ) went to Fiona's place to study. and i must say we DID study! im really quite happy abt that. also managed to fit in some nice conversation. i liked it anyhow.


kids these days are FUCKED UP!! (thats ironic as u'll come to see in this paragraph) they tell each other to go to hell at the tender age of 8! i mean for fuck's sake dont swear n stuff that young! (u feeling the irony yet?)
but seriously. it was kinda sad really. n quite surprising.


*"I hate this song" - first simultaneous sentence in quite a while :D fun to have it happening again*


and then i came home. not the most eventful day some of u may think. well eventful schmeventful. doesnt hafta be full of car chases and half naked girls to be EXCITING y'noe. (altho the half-naked girls thing wld be fun.............. :D )today was good . nice company n conversation n learning n all... so there's a sense of accomplishment n all that jazz too y'noe?


i'll stop here i think
i really should go
i've got an outline to do
and i really dont know

Where the FUCK i shld start
oh there i go again
mouthing off like a dick
im telling u its my friends

that make me say things
like WHAT THE FUCK YOU DOING NOW!
if it wasnt for them
all i'd say'd be "wah lau"

i'd be a damn lil pussy
who never once cusses
i'd be quiet on the train
and never swear on the busses

y'noe wat? FUCK that man
swearing's part of me
if u dont like it
fuck OFF u pussy!!!



k im flipped out u can see :) there's no malice in that tho! its just for fun :D



get some sleep all of you! God knows you need it

i'm reading someone's stuff right now..... n im feeling pretty lousy
regardless of whether or not im one of the persons being mentioned, i still reckon im guilty of some of the things mentioned.
heaven knows i've been a bloody lousy friend sometimes
but pain was NEVER intentionally caused. thats all i can say in mitigation.
n maybe there has been a lil frontin going on. i dunno. but i dont think so.

i hope so at least.

once again, i say that i'm not making the assumption anything was about me. just figured i shld apologise is all.

yup i definitely feel bad. doubly so if it IS about me.

----------------------------------------------------------

lets shunt all that stuff aside then shall we? (apology still stands though).

weather today was fucking nice during PE. but it turned into a goddam hell hole of a hot place the break.

anyhow. ran ELEVEN rounds with mar during PE. *mar it really was just coz u hadnt eaten im sure. we'll try again sometime yeah :)

yeah 11 rounds. trust me man! my word is beyond all shadow of a doubting thomas (another literary reference there. once again, leave a tag if u recognise it. i'd be interested to know if anyone's read the book).

blah blah blah. nothing really happened today to tell the truth.

right now i'm at home. all alone as well. kinda cool :D i've got Korn's Follow the Leader playin right now. one of my fav CDs. They've got an album coming out this year!

as do Limp Bizkit btw. 23rd of September. cant wait. n give them a break! they may be commercialized. i'm not gonna argue that (primarily coz i cant be bothered. not coz i agree). but they're still really good.

found Ben Elton's High Society in the library today. which means once i finish this i'll have read ALL his books. which sucks. dunno who i'll turn to for sharp British humour after him. once again, leave a tag if u have a suggestion please!

Contributions will be much appreciated.


God i sound like one of those bloody beggars (alliteration ya'll. check it out :D ) who go arnd asking for donations.


oh well.

So i see this face so innocent
and sweet....... time
So i see this face and rea-lise its
.............. mine


ppl are really dying like flies these days y'noe. they really are.

such is life. we're ALL dying i spose. just that some of us rush towards it much faster than others.


God willing i'll take my time getting towards it.

hell i take my time with everything else.


Take a look at the above two sentences. one starts with God and the other with Hell. the Creator and the place where his antithesis resides. wat a coincidence.


k im tripping :)


i wonder i wonder
how life used to be
back in the past
its a mystery

did they then go thru
wat we go thru now?
the same blind wanderings
and the wonderings "how?"

did they ask the same questions?
and be confused by life?
did they look for a husband?
or look for a wife?

did they worry too much
like a dog at a bone
abt things that shld, really
be left well alone?

im guessing they did
i'm really nothing new.
but hey, we're unique.
well i am. how bout you?



uh huh. TOTALLY trippin' :)

spose i shld leave.


if you have time and are so inclined: go check out a band called Whiteheart. They're a christian band. now, before that puts you off, they are really damn good. some of the best guitar work i've ever heard. n its not wussy stuff either. try it sometime why dont u.

looooooong day.

headaches seemed to be epidemic in nature. they were making the rounds of the fucking class. gave out 6 Panadol i think

get better ya'll. thats an order



yeah. the egotistical ang moh blah blah blah.


fuck all of u bitches.


:D actually im in a good mood. which is a rare thing these days


i really am! :)


fairly good start to the final term. for some of us it will quite possibly be the last term EVER in cj. yeah i noe: choy n touchwood n all that. but yeah the possibility of that eventuality coming to pass is quite high. for some at least. not necessarily ppl who have access to this blog though.


on the other hand apparently access to my blog is becoming disturbingly high. so then again, maybe ppl in this blog WILL. whatever.


which reminds me: i must change that addy.

maybe tomorrow.


--the amazing procrastinator strikes again!--



uh huh :)

well.
a number of things have clicked in my head. n one of them makes a disturbing amount of sense.

on the other hand, today did serve to show that everything isnt as dire/gloomy/depressing/sad/fucked-up as i had originally thought. maybe things'll all be fine.


the ironic part is that it's largely MY OWN MIND (which is, btw, the size of a planet - this's for those who recognise the phrase. leave a tag if u do) that causes all the problems.

i fucking failed chinese. 43.5 percent i think it was. bloody hell.


+i've realised that wat saddens me the most is that im really worried im going to (yeah "going to" instead of "gonna". im being serious) lose a friend, or at least lose a large measure of the closesness i, at least, thought we had. n that'd really really really (k i cant emphasise how much. but i'll just throw in a few more really's) really really suck.+


time will tell. but things bode well
as of now.


some of u may be scratching your heads over that one. oh well.



(oh well really means "do u really think i give a FUCK?!". i've just been brought up to be polite is all. but just so that u're not operating under any false illusions, here you go: DO YOU REALLY THINK I GIVE A FUCK?!)







(which, of course, brings me to my next point: DO YOU REALLY THINK I GAVE A FUCK about whether you were operating under any false illusions? HELL no! just gave me a chance to mouth off :) )


oh yeah. i got 35/50 from Fahy for that analysis of Iago's speech. now that is a KICK ASS mark in my book. hey the man's tough ok. he really is.


apparently. i havent handed in enough assignments to know :D

oh yeah. his daughter is supposed to be drop dead gorgeous. i was talking to exo abt her. n he said fuck la u dont have a chance. which, doubtless, is true, but i raised the point that women are said to fall in love with men who are like their father. so exo said, "oh so the man needs to be egotistical, ang moh and slightly racist la". which, many people would not hesistate to say, is quite a fitting description of me. go figure :)


in fact most would SCRATCH the "slightly" part. whatever :)



i need a song.....



ha HA i found it ya'll!!!

mar, its called:

LUMP
Lump sat alone in a boggy marsh,
totally emotionless except for her heart
Mud flowed up into lump's pajamas
she totally confused all the passing pihranas

She's lump, she's lump
She's in my head
She's lump, she's lump, she's lump
She might be dead

Lump lingered last in line for brains
and the one she got was sorta rotten and insane
Small things so sad that birds could land
Is lump fast asleep or rockin' out with the band?

She's lump, she's lump
She's in my head
She's lump, she's lump, she's lump
She might be dead

Lump was limp and lonely and needed a shove
Lump slipped on a kiss and tumbled into love
She spent her twenties between the sheets
Life limped along at sub-sonic speeds

She's lump, she's lump
She's in my head
She's lump, she's lump, she's lump
She might be dead

Is this lump outta my head?
I think so
Is this lump outta my head?
I think so
Is this lump outta my head?
I think so
Is this lump outta my head?
----Presidents of the United States of America----


k so its one of the stupidest song titles EVER. but the song ITSELF is really nice. really old too - 1995. but nonetheless, good.

book to read: GRIDLOCK by Ben Elton. British author with wicked (in the literary, not nigger, sense of the word) humour. read this n i reckon you'll feel very different about handicapped people and cars (Clarification: cars = 1 subject. handicapped people = another UNRELATED (unrelated to CARS dickhead) subject. just so ya'll noe.) good read. he's got a new book out too. High Society. sounds funny as hell too.


and that is that.

today.

the one that comes after yesterday and before tomorrow.

although tomorrow WILL be today by this time tomorrow. and today will be yesterday

in which case today is simply a relative term

think abt it.



for like 5 seconds. then dismiss it as yet more crap :)


so today's saturday rite?

dont think i'll be doing much. head to town after lunch. see wat i can get up to.


maybe i'll see some of you.. maybe i wont. we'll see!


tata

***the conversation has always flowed best and most enjoyably with you***






no offence to everyone else though

i fear i have become dull.


its bloody irritatin when people simply dont reply.


comedians are coming on soon


friends? i wonder..........


hurtful? entirely unintended


im being a pain in the ass? sure


fuck all of you who're whining about my blog or anything. get the fuck out if u aint happy.


not u tho. lemme noe again if necessary.



and that is the summation of my thoughts at this time.

Nice little bit of (quite insightful, actually) verse i put together:
"The Truth will set you free"
uh uh
The Truth wont let you be.

Think about it before you dismiss it as yet another bit of drivvel from the bad-poetry machine that is Timothy. The truth, when untold, nags at one's conscience like (for want of a better term) fuck. it really does


For those of you out there who feel this way tell someone watever it is that's been bugging you!

and no im not pointing any accusatory fingers. but there's BOUND to be one or two.


and with that i start this entry. be prepared :D


yesterday:
went to school.
now some of you may ask, as i do myself, why the FUCK we are going to school (yes school) during the SCHOOL (i say again, with added emphasis, SCHOOL) HOLIDAYS. perhaps it is the mark of a lesser mind, in which case i am guilty of possessing such an intellect (and there are no doubt proponents of this belief. this's for you ppl : _|_ ) to assume that a school holiday means a break from school. but no actually! in Singapore apparently a "school" holiday means a break from your normal life in which to go to school! (dont even lemme get started on "normal life" ok. it'll never stop).

no actually im not riled by the fact that i had to go to school yesterday. in fact it was nice to see everyone (except Kristin. where the fuck where u babe? phone alarm postponed dunno WHAT la :) ) especially one or two... even if it didnt seem that i was dying with joy. its just that if a teacher tried to get the students to come back to school for lessons during holidays in Australia or the US (im not sure abt the UK... ppl over there are a little wanky at times. comes of having crappy weather i spose :D ) the teacher's liable to be sued.

'sides the whole purpose of a holiday is to get AWAY from the thing prefixing it. PUBLIC holiday = getting away from the PUBLIC. which for most ppl means away frm work.


the ironic thing is many ppl have to work on these public holidays in order for other people to get away from their work.

hey man its a screwed up life. i never said otherwise


anyhow. after Miss Chua's lessons (which was rather fun actually. enjoyed Rebecca. that sounds sick i know. t'hell with it :D ) we all went to Lido for lunch. blah blah blah. nothing fun really. *and there was a certain bitchy look which i totally didnt understand??!!!! altho that occurred later. slightly confused by it thats all*
anyhow went to watch Pirates of the Caribbean with my cousin n sis later. yeah i NOE im slow. so shoot me alreay ya'll.

anyhow. the movie is FANTASTIC. definitely largely because of Johnny Depp. his humour (which i admit is largely due to the scriptwrites... so props to them too) is cutting, sardonic, sarcastic and witty. although not all at once. that'd be too much :D he is absolutely in character. strangely enough he reminded me greatly of myself. say wat u like.

which reminds me: finished Catcher in the Rye right? the main character reminds me of me as well! i also watched An Ideal Husband (original play written by Oscar Wilde. English chap doncha noe) and Lord Goring ALSO reminds me of myself! now this is slightly disturbing. but also kinda cool. but VERY narcissitic i must admit. oh well. its mainly the humour and way of thinking that is most reminiscent of my own to me.


make what you will of that.


so then after that went to my cousin's place for her birthday. etc etc ad nauseum. u get the picture. birthday do's are all the same.


blah blah blah.

then wat? its all fading now.


oh yeah came home arnd11.30. sent a msg to which i got a reply at 12.50! by then i was out like the proverbial light. my apologies!

as for today:
well i make no grandiose plans. lets see wat comes along shall we? (i WAS gonna write "lets see what comes" and leave it at that. but considering the minds of ppl who have access to this blog that wouldnt do now would it :D )

++speaking of access: cindy told me my blog is linked to someone's. now please for FUCK'S SAKE do NOT FUCKING LINK ME. hope that made it nice and clear thank you very much :D
but for real please lemme noe who it is if ya'll noe. as far as i can remember i havent been asked (yes asking is the polite thing to do y'noe. then again obviously you, whoever you are, DON'T noe. well now you do) if anyone cld link me. so help me sort this out++


final note: was feeling strung up about friends AGAIN. yeah i noe its bloody chronic isnt it. just one or two things. not pissed or anything dont worry (!!!). its just that i tend to worry and analyse-to-death everything. which isnt good.

that about does it for the next half hour or so :D

have an at least so-so day


can't expect much more in these times now can we :)

i dunno man.

this is gonna come out real hurtful.

but:

nothing's really changed. despite me thinking to the contrary as of a few days ago.


still reckon my opinion of where i stand is completely fucked


but how can i talk abt it to anyone? it'd sound so completely juvenile.


man i laugh my ass off at myself. i am such a loser sometimes!!


comes of being mixed i spose

I aint done this for a while
so excuse me if im rusty
life's become all dark n dank
n absolutely fusty

(yes i do believe that is a word
but check it. I aint sure
My brain's fried from studying
About desdemona and the Moor)

oh what the hell. im guessing
e-very-one else is having fun
heck. if what i think is right
i'm the only goddamn one

who's stayed at home all fucking day
but nah it aint that bad
i got some real studying done
(no actually im not mad.

Promos are in 3 fucking weeks!
DOnt tell me you aint started!!
God! you're fucking going down the drain
Hell you're spastic AND retarded!)

well its your life
live it however you wanna
Marijuana is everywhere kid
where was you brought up

if you dont wanna study,
hey man thats fine
but dont go whining
when its bloody time

to get results back.
oh no dont come running
get the FUCK out of school
dont wanna see u coming

back arnd here bitch.
if u dont study at all
well hey, ur just dumb
n ur brain's fucking small


probably too small to study anyway. figures.


^^props to Eminem^^

so i stole a verse. shoot me bitch




and THAT is that :D


actually my day's been rather good. got quite a bit of economics done. feeling quite happy with myself.


**usual thing has happened. tomorrow's my cousins's birthday n i aint got her anything yet.**

anyhow. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy has been re-released i saw today! they were selling it at Popular. looks good!

Lemme try something. gonna type out everything i think of:

pizza. smells good. im missing her n others. econs!! gotta do more. history.. fuck havent started really. Gridlock... wonder how Geoff n Deborah are doing? school tomorrow. gotta get my uniform. food. hungry. Douglas Adams = Arthur Dent? AD = DA. maybe. but he's dead. kinda sad. sick of some bloody motherfuckers. oh blinking MSN window. better go check. 3rd rock frm the sun was bloody funny. why's everyone out having fun? n i never found out wat was going on. sad sad sad. wonder how my friends feel abt me? wonder how many are friends? wonder how many friends i'll still have 3 years from now? blinking window... Default. Would you teach me how to fight? school. him her they we why.


bizarre indeed :D

cya'll later.

fuck everything.



oh well. everyone ELSE'S blogs seem so damn happy. wats the deal??

anyhow. yesterday ended alright. aside frm the fact that there's a disturbing lack of replies from one quarter.



but hey wats new.
+there is actually something that bugs me a lil there. but its probably just me+


everyone in the world seems to have plans today. judging by their blogs. but i havent heard anything (read:havent been informed/havent found out) so guess im staying at home today

**uh HUH im in a bitchy mood. woke up on the wrong side of someone else's bed in a parallel dimension. figures**


'sides i dont relish the process of smsing ppl and finding out wat's going on.

half of the time they probably dont want me.


the OTHER half of the time they make it nice and clear by not replying :D


so yeah i'll be at home. at least that's the most plausible eventuality.



^she is a goddess^



one last thing: for those of you to whom nothing above made sense.... its important to remember that this blog is for ME. the idea is that i'll look back over the entries someday n these little snippets will make sense. at least that's the idea. so if it DONT make sense n you DONT like it, go satisfy your voyeuristic inclinations ELSEWHERE thank you very much.


yup. im bitchy today.


lunch'll fix it :)


i'll end with this. something i found on someone's blog. it tickled me :D check it out:

Do your part to fight global warming and shut your goddamn mouth.


uh huh :D see ya'll arnd

i dunno man.

yeah i totally am happy with someone now. good that got sorted out. thanks n all

but one or two others are fucking bugging me.


secrecy....... oooooooOOOOOOOOOooooooo
-cue Twilight Zone music-

Note: this quite possibly is NOT about you. please dont be paranoid.

but yeah trust is SUPPOSED to be a reciprocal thing.






whatever. some people aren't worth getting worked up over.
some are of course

n besides privacy is your pergogative. i'm just feeling bitchy i suppose.

then again maybe not.




uh huh im feeling a lil contradictory. long empty day.

empty means devoid of anything y'noe.

just checking :)



so yeah i've been bumming arnd home. i HAVE got some study done. not much. but enough to satisfy my conscience.



hell it dont take much :D


missing people!!!

guess who u are.


y'noe wat i'll be back later maybe. kinda bored with this.


-.......-

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fun day.

started the day at 10. yes i woke up at ten. which, by the way, is FUCKING LATE for me. im usually up arnd 7 or 8. but i was up til 3 last night chatting n sorting stuff out (i trust it IS sorted out you :) ) so yeah slept in.
then i went to town with that aussie guy who's staying at my place (who's = who WAS. he just left. sob sob sob). n it was fun! since he's australian i can really talk to him abt stuff that i cant talk to s'poreans abt y'noe? namely singaporeans themselves really. n yeah it was cool
we went looking for phones and jewellry n stuff. ppl here are SO dishonest and scheming y'noe. one actually said "if u buy NOW i tell u the price if u buy LATER then i tell you later" wat kind of BULL FUCKING SHIT is that? im more flabbergasted than pissed really. found it all highly amusing.

anyhow. left him at 3 coz he needed a private talk with some guy. so i went to paly pool with exo for a while at SSC.... then headed down to starbucks where cindy was at. victor showed up too... which reminds me:

*victor i am SO glad u are a skateboarder y'noe. coz otherwise, if u WEREN'T and u showed up like u did today, in skate shoes n a skate shirt, well it wld have been damn bloody fucking poseur u noe. so yeah im just really glad ur not like that coz ur a real skater.*


:D


yes where was i? oh yeah mar showed up too. damn u were HOT girl. oooooooo yes :D n exo i like the belt. pretty sweet. but u gotta pull ur fucking pants up. its really too much. n u noe i sag mine like fuck too. so me saying that means something.

whatever rite. i hear u :)

++real good to see you today. really good. was bloody wonderful. dunno why also la. just was. gave me a real buzz. -hug- again :)++

yeah yeah a real one. i hear u too.


so then we did the usual wander arnd routine. y'noe how it goes la. cindy DID buy her skate shoes. so there was minor accomplishment i s'pose.

ended up at Lido.i had ta leave them pretty quick - victor i DID say g'bye today didnt i?! broke my heart to have to go so soon.

then went back to meet the guy at Centrepoint. had the pleasure of listening to the Spiderman soundtrack along the way. thanks again mar. its damn good.

basically thats all there was to my day la. i just enjoyed it quite a lot. mainly coz of... well yeah. a lil meeting..... a lil conversation.... a lil weather... they all do wonders y'noe.


reflection: brotherly affection huh?? who woulda guessed man. who woulda guessed. sure as helll not me :D


that quite possibly has all of u scratching ur heads. if THAT didnt, try this

Reflection: the reminiscence of the past is but a mirage of the future.


trust me dont bother. its just exo's pseudo-intelligent crap. nice one there :)


see ya'll arnd somewhere. althought not necessarily some place round.

i owe you an apology
i owe you a damn sight more than an apology
but that's all i can give you here.

n i'd never stopped to think how
my being a bastard on my blog
cld be hurting
you

but it shld be all
about you anw. not abt
me n my selfishness

so i'm sorry. no smiles or anything
forget all the absolute BULLSHIT
i've said here n there
n every-fucking-where

i've screwed up
n thanks for showing me
gen-t-ly

sorry again
for not being a friend
and for being more hassle than im worth

thanks for not throwing ur hands up
in the air
and going fuck this white bastard
(well at least thanks for not letting
me see you when u do it)

apologies are due to you
for all eternity really
i really really really didnt noe
well didnt care to be perfectly honest

how much of a bastard i was being


anw this's gone on
long
enough
so one more time:
sorry. for real. no smiles at all

i'll make it up somehow
or so i say. but i really cant.
so forgive me please
or dont. either way i'm equally sorry.

thanks

.
..
...
....
.....


and thats how im gonna start this entry.
y'noe some day im really gonna get fucking pissed. really

anyhow. enuff angst.

-+- short note: i've got mar's Spiderman soundtrack playing now. man its good. sure its a lil old. but watever. nice nice nice -+-

went to bed at 2 this morning. n had to wake up at 7.30 this morning. now some of you i noe can handle that. but i aint one of them (obviously. otherwise my name'd be charine or kristen or something) so yeah i was bloody tired. went to Church of Praise with the guy who's staying with me n my dad. i really love hanging out with adults y'noe. much more the teens in many ways. they're just much more INTELLIGENT ppl. n they noe so much more than ur average dopehead. so it was cool hanging out with the two of them. felt really really australian, relaxed n all. plus the aussie sense of humour is something totally unique. nothing like it anywhere.
this's really something i treasure a lot. n its really a joy to have australians around. i love my culture and heritage as an australian almost more than anything else i can put my finger on. im not saying its magnificent coz it definitely isnt. but i treasure it heaps.
so anw. at Church of Praise i saw that girl from 2t03. germaine i think her name is. she's REALLY cute!! plus we both recognised each other n she gave me this knock-out smile. like -whoa- my heart skipped a few beats, then totally left my body to go daydream abt her in some dark corner. it then took a coffee break for abt 10 minutes before coming back to rest inside my rib cage. the girl is gorgeous. really. i miss her!
then i went to meet my homies at PS. now some of u are probably thinking "homies. bloody ang moh bastard acting black when he's a fucking glow-in-the-dark white boy". well yeah maybe its justified sometimes. but this time arnd i really cant think of a better term to express the feeling i have for my maris stella friends. i just totally flip out with them. i mean sure 1T03's alright. but everyone is so fucking uptight in it y'noe wat i mean? everything's so stringent. "oh ur being such a fag" "ur so bitchy" blah blah blah ad nauseum. its really only with my marists (speaking only of s'poreans) that i can totally cut loose n freak out. n i treasure that. gotta hang with them a lil more. they're really a good bunch. kinda freaky how some totally havent changed though.
so yeah. i met them n we went to Meridien to play pool. which was fun. but the real fun was in the conversation n the walking arnd n all. i just thoroughly relaxed... completely. that'll never be seen in CJC. absolutely never. it'd be impossible! ppl there require a lil more sanity. n they take everything a lil too seriously. n coz they do i do in return. 'cept with marists, my friends at least, i cant speak for ALL marists, i can do just abt anything without being hated. it was wonderful to just mess arnd with them.

**k as u can tell it really gave me a buzz. yeah it totally did. still high on it**

then the group sorta dissolved. so i walked arnd a while with Josh (u better be in here u nigga! gave u the addy already). wound up at Long John's at Cine. talked n stuff. ur a good guy man.

i messed arnd a whole lot with accents today too. that was cool. im gonna miss the freedom i had today i noe

anw


went to meet Cindy at mcdonalds at Wisma afterwards to kill time. which was fun! altho i didnt noe mar n victor were gonna show up.....

anyhow. killed time with them for a while. then left... supposedly to go to a church function. now here's the deal: i was SUPPOSED to be going to Anywhere Bar at Tanglin n then to Harry's tonight. so the deal was that i'd go to church n then get a lift afterwards with a coupla ppl. but then apparently that got cancelled. so then i figured, fuck it i'll go home. was too tired to go with cindy n the rest to go watch Pirates of the Carribean. whatever.

'cept now i'm like wide awake. i'll see if i can convince anyone to go to harry's. tonight's jam night!! i wanna see Michael Stanton n Christy Smith!

**fucking irritating when ppl get all uptight coz u ask them something that's fucking true. n its fucking irritating when confidentialty n all is fucked. motherfucking pain in the ass**

yeah there's a lil of the good ole anger running now. no real reason la. just a little peeved.


what's new right? crazy white bastard (took the words right outta ur mouth there didnt i exo? _|_ )

oh well. i miss hanging out with my homies man. i really do

reflection: there's a difference between "im his close friend" n "we're close friends" isnt there? been thinking abt it. coz i reckon some ppl who I hold as close friends dont feel the same way in return. think abt it. quite possibly the ppl who u really treasure dont give as much of a damn abt u as u do abt them. kinda sad really

i dont noe
how to go with the flow
everything's so godddam screwed
there's no one
under the sun
by whom i havent been used
at least that's how i feel
dunno if its real
who really gives a damn
if its true
heck i've been used by YOU
guess thats just the way i am.
usable


Hello, hello, hello, how low?
With the lights out it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My Libido
Yay!


cya all u phonies. tata all you fake friends.

n for all my genuine ones, a heartfelt big up to ya.

short reflection:
cindy told me, after hearing bits n parts n pieces of my story on Thursday (when we were in the canteen after i pulled my lil stunt with Damo) that, frm wat she's heard of the whole thing, i'm really quite inexperienced. but i dunno man. somehow i feel that even if i'd have dated 200000000000000000000000 girls (why'd i start with 2? psychoanalyse me please someone) i still woulda been outta my depth with her. y'noe how sometimes you struggle when you're swimming? n your head kinda bobs just at the surface, sometimes under and sometimes above it? thats how i felt.


n it was fucking exhilarating.

thats what gets me about the whole being in love thing. if its real, i feel that its new. y'noe what i mean? sure it sounds damn fucking sappy n all. but yeah i think its true. i was sure lost n confused this time round. happy too, but lost n confused for sure.

thats about it!!


like i said, short.

weird....... blogspot seems to have reverted to the old style of posting. for me that is. for ya'll it still looks the same i spose.

anyhow. i was thinking: we experience SO MUCH every day. and yet looking back over the past week (indeed all of life) only a few events stick out.
Wrestling with Victor in the muddy, half-drowned field. and thoroughly enjoying myself. Punching mar too hard in the stomach and feeling like absolute shit when it hurt her real bad. and genuinely being sorry. giving it up for damo in translations. and totally not giving a damn abt getting in trouble.

funny how only a few things stick out. there're more. but they're a lil more personal. so maybe another time

--victor i made a comment abt something u said in ur blog. i take it back. its very true... it really does suck--

anw. who's charlotte?? i really hope its not someone i shld noe. if it is im highly embarrassed. leave a tag n explain please!!! (sounding rather totalarian here aint i?)

ok wats happened.... yesterday. oh yeah chermaine's birthday!! hope it was good for you Chermaine (there you go :D ) 18.... very old. very scary too.

to be honest im getting really worried about getting older. life's not getting any easier y'noe. n while most singaporeans dont seem to have to worry as much (meaning ur parents pay for Uni n all) i've gotta find ways to do it myself! one of the few things i dislike abt being australian. one of the VERY FEW.

**been feeling rather patriotic since this aussie guy started staying with us. nice to have another one to talk to**

oh yes speaking of ppl of other races: my speech yesterday during the GP lecture. hmmmmmmmmmm wats a better term: highly embarrassing or total write-off??
well it wasnt QUITE that bad. emphasis on quite. but it was pretty bad la. least i thot so.

exo broke the buttons on my pants yesterday too. so they were damn bloody loose. like wearing jeans that're 3 sizes too big WITHOUT a belt. u leave any dumb ass tag today ur one dead fucking donkey man u BITCH!

That Flavio Cucchi thing i went to was pretty good! (Flavio Cucchi = Italian guitarist. Guitarist = someone who plays guitar. Guitar = oh come ON you CANT be that stupid). only thing is, and this's never happened before, listening to him i can fully envisage myself doing exactly the same thing. THIS YEAR. albeit on a slightly lower level. but then again the man IS several DECADES older than me. so its no embarrassment that im not at his standard yet. but yeah its nice to think of that.

++enjoying things a lot. everything's really nice n calm inside me now. very content.... comfortable with the current level n all. im really really enjoying this++

hmmm a song to put in here:

Hero
I am so high I could hear heaven,

I am so high I could hear heaven,

but Heaven, no heaven dawned in me,

And they say that a Hero could save us,

I'm not gonna stand here and wait,

I'll hold on to the wings of an eagle,

Watch as we all fly away,



Someone told me love will not save us,

But how can that be? Look what love gave us, a

World full of killing, in blood spilling that world never came



And they say that a Hero could save us,

I'm not gonna stand here and wait,

I'll hold on to the wings of an eagles,

Watch as they all fly away,



Now that the world isn't ending

It's love that I'm sending to you,

It isn't the love of a hero,

And that's why I fear it won't do,



And they say that a Hero could save us,

I'm not gonna stand here and wait,

I'll hold on to the wings of an eagle,

Watch as they all fly away,



And they're watchin us ,

They're watchin us,

AS we all fly away



And they're watchin us ,

They're watchin us,

AS we all fly away



And they're watchin us ,

They're watchin us,

AS we all fly away

----Chad Kroeger----

i wanna sing this some day. really like it.

well to end off: not sure wat i'll be up to today. would really like to see one or two people. but we'll see what happens.

oh yeah i really wanna watch several movies. drop me a line ya'll!!


have a good weekend. i'd also say have a good holiday (for those in JC) but since we have that minor irritance known as the Promotional Exams to study for, chances of an actual holiday are slim. whatever

^^speaking of exams, thanks again mar :D ^^

-poof-

ttttttiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyy!!!


felt like starting today that way. dont ask why (coz i dont have a good answer :D )

thoroughly enjoyed today!! was damn fun.

why? u ask. well i dont really know la. just an overall thing. lemme see:

first event that leaps to mind: ATTITUDE mutherfucka in damo's lesson! smacking it DOWN bitch!
k before i descend into total nigga madness, what happened is this: Damo's period is fucking boring rite? (for the uninitiated: Mdm Damodaran is a middle-aged Indian lady who teaches us translations for literature) so naturally i wasnt dead keen on sticking arnd for it. so i went in to the LT, put my stuff down and went back out with Cindy. we then proceeded to the canteen.(big fucking crime aparently. like BITE ME man). we were there for like less than 10 minutes. and then we went back into the LT. now, as soon as i stepped in, she was like -insert indian twang here- "You two are not welcome in this lecture! Get out now!" of course i was like Fuck That man. aint taking that lying down. so i played it real nonchalant right. real calm n all. kept walking down towards where i'd left my stuff, picked it all up n said "Ok. Bye!" in a (i must admit, and with some pride too) pretty xia lan voice. especially considering i was late n all. then i breezed on outta that place with Cindy in tow.


best part is i didnt get into any real trouble at all!


so anyhow. after that went to the canteen. when the lecture was over kai feng came over n said "ur my idol man! i worship you!" apparently he really liked the stunt i pulled. Niven gave me my props for it too.... as did one or two others. not bad for a lil white boy eh :D (i can just hear it now mar: "n all the (well, guys in this context) guys say im pretty fly for a white guy" :) hahahahahahahahahaha. sweet)


very strange. im really really comfortable now. everything's sorta at a lower level. but i really like things the way they are. totally totally cool. still there kinda. but hey whatever! im feeling the flow man.


-- that quite possibly made VERY little sense to some of you. well dont let it get to ya ok? it really doesnt matter. im just overflowing with happiness that things are the way they are--


ran 8 rounds with mar after school. thanks mar for pushing us both. if you hadnt held up ur finger after the 6th and 7th rounds i wlda just stopped there. instead we did the whole eight! despite the bloody heat n all. lets remember the pact n try n do the same for our promos hey??


k before i get all preachy n goody goody n puke all over myself ... :)

played the most fun volleyball EVER!!! sorry to everyone for being such a loudmouth btw :D just been feeling really relaxed n all the past week. really enjoying it too.

wat else...... nothing really stood out about today really. it was just generally a good day.

i have a bloody speech on "how to combat racism in Singapore" to prepare for tomorrow. the irony just kills me (thats a nod to Catcher in the Rye. im reading it courtesy of mar (name just keeps popping up today doesnt it). good book. not the best ever, but above average for sure. plus its the Homicidal Killer's book of choice apparently. must be good :D ) me of all people talking about how to stop racism. and in SINGAPORE. oh well. probably do something off the top of my head as always. be forewarned everyone. no kidding.


*everyone who regularly comes to this blog please leave a tag. gonna HAVE to change my addy due to the intrusion of certain prying eyes. like fuck man. bloody fucking irritating. "You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it. And when you dream, I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it. I hope your conscious eats at you and you can't breathe without me." i hope thats's what withdrawl from my blog does to you. its pretty believable too..... seeing as you're obviously a pathetic loser who has to obtain my address thru sly and despicable means.

^^props to eminem^^

++ something just cracked me up (or killed me. alternative terms are wonderful aint they :D ) there are quite likely people out there who have my blog without permission, that i dont noe abt and hence am not referring to them in the above segment. however it is quite possible that THEY dont noe whether i noe abt them or not (u following? kinda messy i noe). therefore they cld be feeling really guilty n all.... when im not even talking abt them!!! guess im kinda good then huh. unintentionally inflicting guilt on people. wicked indeed :D ++

that abt does it for today. leave ya'll with this:

Spit dont rhyme with spot
Clit dont rhyme with dot
Spat dont rhyme with sun
Hat dont rhyme with one
We dont rhyme with they
He dont rhyme with say
girl dont rhyme with boy
twirl dont rhyme with toy
No word i know of rhymes with ball
I can't seem to rhyme at all!!!
----Tim----


nice bit of fluff to end an pleasant day. peace, love, lust n weed ya'll :)

well i WAS gonna start this with "friends. Ha"

but i dont feel like doing that any more.

instead:

g'day mate.

feeling particularly australian today. probably coz there's another one SLEEPING IN MY ROOM.
long story. but he's real nice.

so if there are like typos n stuff today excuse me pls. using my mum's laptop n its much harder to type.

lets see....................
GP test was a fucking joke. like Timo said i clda done it with my eyes closed. -hug- to mar: it'll be better next time la. cheer up n all. and -middle funger- to exo. crazy BITCH. ("TIIIIIIMMMMMMMMMMMMMY!!!!!!!!!!" i can hear u from here :D ) anyhow the list of essay questions very kindly provided me with "Write an essay about a great book that has had an impact on your life." like DUH. Lord of the Rings. ----for those of you, like mar, who're wondering how the FUCK it fits, well it does la. just take my word for it----

feelings are resurging like cancer after chemo. well thats not the best possible analogy of course. i dont mind. well at least i dont mind as much as if it were cancer (like DUH right). but yeah interesting. definitely nowhere near as strong as before tho. although thats no surprise. before it was fucking overwhelming. like a bloody tidal wave. this is much easier to deal with.

arrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhh. boring. fucking chinese mock test on Friday. wanna skip the damn thing.


Who even likes the forsaken language anw? (actually i noe the answer to the question. but look at the ones who do! they all speak like "haaaa? hooooor? leeei" fuck that man.)

ok im bored now. NO ONE is online. NO ONE. everyone has DIED.












oh well who gives a fuck. :D

maybe i'll be back later. till then :

Shake Ya Tail Feather
[Intro: Atlanta Braves tomahawk chop]

[Nelly (P. Diddy)]
We do it for fun
We just do it for fun
Dirty E.A.T
We do it for fun
Bad Boy (Nelly, Diddy, Murphy Lee)
We do it for fun (This is history baby)
Bend them trucks
We do it for fun (haha)
Stack them bucks
We do it for fun (Come on now)
And the band played on (yea)
Just like (I believe you cool to this)
We do it for fun
If you see me ma
We do it for fun

[P. Diddy]
Bad Boys 2, the soundtrack
Let's Go

[Verse 1: Nelly + (P. Diddy)]
Hey girl
What your name is?
Where you from?
Turn around who you came with?
Is that your ass or your momma have reindeer?
I can't explain it but damn sure glad you came here
I'm still a sucker for cornrolls, you know I never changed that (nah uh)
Your body is banging mamma, but where your brains at? (Come on)
I'm still the same cat when I was young I was running with bad boys
But now I'm older hope they saw I'm running with bad boys (that's right)
Here come another man
Unlike no other man
Candy coated whoa!
Switching in every lane
Ya'll help me
Why don't cha
Please help me
A thug is we then it's only two G
I like the cocky bow legged ones
Like white and Dominicans
Hispanics and Asians
Shake it for Nelly son
Manolos Ma-no-no's I can't tell
Everybody and their hootchies
When you do it do it well

[Braves tomahawk chop done in background of Chorus]

[Chorus]
[Nelly] Let me see you take it off
[P. D.] Girl go and take it off
[Nelly] We can even do it slow
[P. D.] We can even do it slow
[Nelly] Take it where you want to go
[P. D.] Take it where you want to go
[Nelly] Just take that ass to the floor
[P. D.] Pop something move something
Shake ya tail feather, girl go and take it low
[Nelly] We can even do it slow
[P. D.] We can even do it slow
[Nelly] Take it where you want to go
[P. D.] Take it where you want to go
[Nelly] Just take that ass to the floor
[P. D.] Pop something move something
Shake ya tail feather

[Verse 2: P. Diddy + (Nelly)]
Now real girls get down on the floor (on the floor)
Get that money honey act like you know (like you know)
Mama I like how you dance
The way you fit in them pants (Uh)
Enter the floor (Uh) take it low (Uh) girl do it again (Uh)
You know I love that (I love that)
Now where them girls at? (Where the girls at?)
It's Diddy, Murphy Lee, and Nelly how you love that? (Shit uh ohhhhhh)
Come on, we got another one player
From New York to the Dirty how they loving it player?
Baby you impressive let's get
To know each other
You the best of the best and
You got to love it in the dresses, the sexiest
I had to tell her she's a young Janet Jackson live in living color
Look here momma you're dead wrong for having them pants on
Capri's cut low so when you shake it I see you're thong
My pocket's full of dough shake your feathers till the morning
It's Bad Boy and Nelly man somebody better warn them

[Chorus]

[Bridge: Nelly]
Oh no I heard them bad boys coming
Can't stop now
Got to continue my running (yea)
Because we go party till them lights come on
And then my song start thumping because my mike still on

[Verse 3: Murphy Lee + (Nelly)]
Yo, I'm the big booty type
I like them thick with their mind right (Awe)
Banging personality conversate when the time right (Naw)
I'm not hard I've got women to handle that
They be like he the man when I'm really a Thundercat
Come on you know the tics connect like Voltron
Collect so much grass popo thinking we mow lawns
My gohans don't match that
But it matches her head wrap and the seats that I got in the lap
I'm just a juvenile (Wha)
Because I be about G's
Keep your women wizzy man they say they have my babies
I'm young like Tucker like the cash and the money (I'm going to eat my money)
Man, I'm that damn hungry
See I'm starving like Marvin girl
I've got sixteen bars of fire is what I'm starting
Plus my rats come in packs like Sammy and Dean Martin
And I got so many keys you'd think I was valet parking

[Chorus]

[Bridge: Nelly]
Oh no I heard them bad boys coming
Can't stop now
Got to continue my running (yea)
Because we go party till them lights come on
And then my song start thumping because my mic still on (man)

[Outro: Atlanta Braves tomahawk chop]
----Nelly feat. Murphy Lee & P. Diddy----


cmon man P Diddy is the most pathetic rap name ever. the man's a fag i swear.


whatever :D cya