well well....... interesting day :D woke up late... which lead me to having to wait 1/2 an hour for a cab... and THAT led to me being 15 minutes late for my history exam. which was actually pretty exhilarating. adrenaleine pumped n all that :) so anw..... i sat down to my paper. and i KNEW HOW TO DO EVERYTHING!!!! that eensy bit of study i did actually paid off. so that was WAY cool. 'cept that daniel, who was sitting beside me, was stressed out. totally tripped. he was huffing n all...... (maisie if ur reading this.... SHHHH) so anw history was fine. i actually used FIVE COUNTRIES in each of rajoo's papers. ^5 to myself if i may :D n GP was fine. but thats no big deal all i wanted was a pass anw. so i was sitting in the audi (auditorium for the uninitiated) and i was bored, so i wrote poetry as i often do as those of u who are familiar with my exam patterns will noe. (u shouldnt be in here tho..... wth nvm) well yeah i always either cut out paper men or write poetry. go figure :D so here it is. mar said its kinda good!!!! official endorsement :D

I sit there
Within my chair
My mind is miles away
With every breath
Approaches death
At least thats what they say
"death approaching?
"how revolting
"a topic" is what you'd think
But is it truly
When it really
Approaches with every blink?
With every passing second
The Grim Reaper beckons
Calling us to the fold
But I think that
Is loads of crap
All I know is THE AUDI'S COLD!!!!!

hahaha its going really grim and solemn like right up till the third last line aint it :D i like it.... well anw its been a good day.... that subway sandwich was what i needed too!!! but char, u n not finishing ur food... its just WEIRD. wayy weird thats all i can say :D im gone

dammit i prefer my entries to have TITLES!! nvm...
well well.... yesterday. wat happened yesterday... oh yes right yesterday -waves maryjane's breath outta my face- (dunno if ya'll will get the maryjane thingy.... i'd say go check a dictionary but most dictionarise wont have it :D ) first off: GOOD guitar lesson... then went to meet mar and fiona to study. where was char??? :( sad sad yesyes?? :D well anw... mar just seemed intent on condemning herself. which is fine :D cheer UP if your reading this! smoke a joint or two! (what am i SAYING???) fiona was alright... she studied rather than got hung up. which is GOOD :D 'side from that nothing much really... oh yes apparently im the person char talks to most online. An honour my dear. truly it is. i'd like to thank everyone that made this possible... and to take this opportunity to protest against the war in Iraq and pray for WORLD PEACE (its an acceptance speech geddit?? for the honour and all)..........
k moving along :D exams start tomorrow. no biggie!! think i mite be alrite... most worried abt econs. oh well. better go study now. g'day!

welll....

hmmm for some reason titles dont seem to show up.... anw think ill go with this skin for a while.... then ill change it. hope ya'll like it too!! :D

argh

WAS going to change my skin..... but its too much of a fucking hassle... do it tomorrow. its cool.... this Matrix inspired thing. i like it at least. check it out tomorrow.

blah blah blah (cant think of a title)

awwwwww.... kinda sad. sent off one of my best friends today... he's flying back to the states for TWO AND A HALF MONTHS. damn... he always had good music n stuff.. plus he was cool to hang out with. DAMN TALL tho... like 188cm i think. i'll miss having him arnd. plus he's a great pool player. and he's american of course. wayyyy fun :D oooooooooo well.

onto nicer things. had a great lunch after he left with his parents. (two COOL 50 year olds. yeah i noe watcha thinking. 50 yr olds==cool??? how's that? well they ARE american. and the dad has a liver which's been totally shot to pieces by heroin. so he's been arnd... which keeps him young :D ) feel pretty stuffed even now 6 hours later. my lava lamp's on.... looking at it i totally understand why my guitar teacher tells me lava lamps are acid-visions without the acid. haha for those that are wondering acid is that stuff Ewan Mcgregor took in Moulin Rouge when he saw that fairy. remember that?? cool shit :) then i came home and studied. yes, pick your jaw up off the floor. i STUDIED. no biggie man!! :D pretty good actually. n now im chilling for a while.... n im gonna go chill somewhere else for the moment.

thanks :D

well well well... seems that some people DO read my blog!! cool :D well to char, cher, mar and PhatJo thanks for all the msgs and stuff... forget abt it tho... everything's fine. special shout-out to Phat Jo!! no idea WHO you are... but hey anyone who says "buT iT seEms liKe uR a gReaT wriTer." has GOT to be a good person in my book :D altho that problem u have with caps kinda makes me think u were tripped out or something :D nah thanks anw. i DO really enjoy rap. so its cool that u think my work's got rap-possibilities :) all i wanna noe is WHO ARE U??? that kinda stuff makes me reach for the weed man. STOP ME BY TELLING ME WHO YOU ARE. (who gave u the link anw??) but u seem pretty alrite. feel free to come back whenever u want :D im gone.

W...T...F

K i am fucking pissed. things are totally going on behind my back that i noe fuck-all abt. or to twist it another way a-fucking-round some people just arent behaving the way they do in front of me..... and they definitely dont tell me the truth. motherfucking cunts. should all be taken out and shot one by fucking one. lousy pieces of no good shit. the story's too long to tell here... suffice to say that it doesnt involve anyone who's got access to this blog. so if ur reading this (i AM of course talking to people who I gave the address to myself. dopehead. if ur in here unauthorised so to speak get the FUCK out bitch) u dont have to worry abt anything. well of course u DO have to worry abt things (we ARE still alive) but u dont have to worry abt this profanity-ridden entry being abt u. and i shan't tell the story here anw..... but its FUCKED. totally. people who act friendly face-to-face and then do shit behind my back.... plus bitch abt stuff which totally isnt true (and this isnt a matter of opinion... its abt my knowledge of something. trust me im not so far gone that i no longer know whether or not i know something. not yet anyway). so anw..... fuck it all..

aside from that today was pretty fun actually :D k its weird to suddenly switch moods i noe. im a closet shizo. as im sure ppl will tell u. besides the above issue only came up within the last hour. so the rest of my day has been fine. studied with exo n char.... highlight of which woulda been poking the later's nose... so cute!! :D (man exo's rite. im a total fag) yeah well........ next two days ill be flying solo re study... miss the 2 of them but cant hang arnd all the time. gotta let exo work his magic too :D im gone

i wanna insert some humour into this so...... :

this's something i did when i was chatting with mar...... i liked it so i wrote it down. mar seemed to think it was pretty good :D 'nuff said. here it is ('scuse the vulgarities. artistic liscense and all that)

wat if one day
i woke up and had turned gay
i dont noe wat i would do
walk around saying "can i fuck you??"
to every single man i meet?
any guy along the street?
methinks if i did do this
many guys would soon be pissed
(unless more are gay then i had thought)
(but surely there aren't that many, there ought
not be that many gays
hanging on the streets these days)
but anw wat i was saying
was if I went round displaying
my homosexual tendencies
many men would NOT be pleased
so angry i think they would be
they'd fuck me, but not literally
oh no, dear friends
there'd be bends
n painful kicks and shoves involved
and one or two punches on the nose
and then they'd walk away
saying "fuck u bitch. have a nice day"
oh how i dread the time
that i wake up gay. Hetero's fine!

there u go :D for those of u (weird. i keep assuming people ARE reading this. if anyone IS, do me a favour. leave a shout out or something) who're wondering, yeah i do dabble in poetry quite a bit. im not fantastic, at least not yet, but im alright. bye. and hoped u (there i go again) liked it.

hmmmmmmm

its 9.15 in the morning...... and daniel's initiated a conversation with me??!! (for those who mite be reading this, the whole story is -in a highly melodramatic, emotional voice- too painful an experience for me to recount in simple words here. i fear the mere retelling of the tragic events which ensued would rend my heart in two. ok that's bullshit. its just a long story :D ) yeah well that's weird. but anw im just wondering what sparked that off. on the other hand mar (i shant get started on THAT tale either) hasnt replied to ANY of my msgs, sms or MSN, for a grand total of one week. ah well. i've pretty much given up on reciprocating any conversational attempts from THAT quarter. kinda sad tho she was fun sometimes. k ALL the time really. cept for when she'd INSIST that i was being bitchy. I mean, ME, bitchy?? puh-leeze. it'd never happen. (wow i think a decomposing vegetable of some sort just flew past my head)

k ASIDE from all this crap (im doing CAPS a lot today arent I? :D ) gotta study today....watched Nemo with exo n char yesterday (i've decided to use names btw... i figure even if ppl are reading this stuff and dunno who im talking abt, I will noe who i'm talking abt when i look back. well i SHOULD noe. although the large quantities of alcohol and weed i plan to imbibe MAY slightly hinder that. :D ) so yeah we watched that... pretty funny stuff :) exo n char... exo n char.... seems really weird. both funny n strange (if ur here c then -wink- :D ) they seem pretty comfortable abt the whole thing... which i find slightly hilarious. laughed a lot yesterday for no reason apparent to them. probably thot i was schizo or something. but exo talks to her much less than I do!!!?? wat's he DOING? (ooooo evanesence just came on the radio. good) he always says like "oh tim u go for her... if the two of u are happy i'll be happy for her." now he NEVER did that with Fiona. he was always possessive. as in "stay the fuck away ang moh" kinda thing :D . so im ruminating on that... does it mean he's MORE serious abt this? coz his desire for her to be happy is greater than his desire to have her? (which is kinda sweet, but pretty sad if u ask me) or does he not really give a damn this time? much as it seems strange to me, im actually inclined to think that its the FORMER. yes, the former. which means that exodus DOES have feelings for others beyond himself. like, someone call CNN or something :D. nah ive always known exo to have some sensitivity. just kinda surprised at it surfacing in this context. go figure. this's llllllooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggg man. never blogged so long before. k im gone.

its been a while..

"but all that shit seems to disapper/ when im with you" (recognise that?? Staind: Its been a while. the title of the song just happens to fit this entry thats all :D ) well it HAS been a while since i've blogged. plus my most recent entries for some reason refuse to appear on the fucking site. (scuse that) this mite not even. but anyway i digress. (digress? thats sorta like when you... put a joint down and go snort up a coupla lines of coke off a glass table or something. thats digressing :D ) no MAJOR events recently.... but i have been encouraged in my faith. coming to CJC kinda depressed me. coz every christian I met seemed to be really un-serious about God. some going to the point of not even standing up for it. but recently one of the sorta-christians who i woulda thot to be one of the farthest away from God seems to be being really serious about Him now. so thats GREAT!! got me motivated actually. So yeah if you're reading this and you know who you are (u SHOULD) well yeah big up, ^5, thanks. all that positive kinda stuff. you know what i mean. :D hmmmmm today im going to TRY and conquer history. try being the operative word in that sentence -siiiiiggggggghhh- oh well. one must do one's best.
another thing..... i've been wondering how i should end my blog entries. weird i noe, but still endings are as important as beginnings. i'll think of something eventually i guess. for now, im gone.

waste of time!!

Man... woke up at 7.30 coz i had an economics tutorial in school at 9. so i go down to school (i'd skip it but its ECONOMICS. which im gonna fail if there aint a paradigm shift sometime soon.) so i get there and there's not ONE soul from my class there. NO ONE. k thats cool. happens all the time ( :D ) so i sit around waiting. still no one. i go to the general office and ask if my teacher's in school... so this nice lady goes to the staff room to look for her. so while im hanging around outside the room (this is at 9.30 by the way) my teacher shows up. and she's PISSED. as in flipped out. she's impressed that im there (although she didnt believe that i was eager to attend the lesson...... she figured that i only just got there. had to get the testimony of the office lady to save me. after which things went sweeter :D ) but really tripping about the class not being there. aside from that, I WASTED AN ENTIRE MORNING. in the end i went down to serene centre (where Phoebe had alighted en route to school coz i told her there wasnt a lesson) and had breakfast with her... which redeemed the day somewhat. but still.... what a waste of time!!! -insert suitable frustrated "what the fuck is wrong with the world" sound here- oh well.

weird

waaaayyyy weird... i got these two calls on my cell from some number i didnt know... so i get my home line n call the number. lo and behold its some girl with a nice slang (pleasant after all the singapore accents i hear... not to be obnoxious). first off she says "are you going to Milieu tonight?" so i say "no. who am i speaking to?" (this isnt verbatim.... im sorta paraphrasing) then she says "oh i'd like to be known as sarah... i've seen u around in town and I think you're really hot" after that the conversation got boring..... finished pretty soon after that. turns out she's from Overseas Family School. i dunno whether its for real though... getting weird vibes about the whole thing. oh well.....things sorta went sour. its blown over anw. but still if its for real, MAN!!! im nowhere near that hot. i WISH i was. oh well. -poof- im gone

p.s. comments system seems to be screwed... so make use of the other ones i've already put up if u wanna leave a comment

:D

guitar's going great!! woke up with a smile on my face today... had a special conversation with a special person yesterday. it was..... well.... special (gee i hope one cant get sued for over-using a word) cleared the air.... but it was fun too. cant remember when was the last time i had so much fun talking to someone. so if you're reading this (u SHOULD noe who u are) thanks. big up for ya. so yeah that was wonderful. cept that this person said something weird... apparently she thinks that i mask my feelings. i DO?? shit thats scary... coz im not aware of doing that myself. here we go:

bloggie bloggie on the web
Is there truth to what she said?
Do i have a mask inside?
My inner feelings for to hide?
Or is it just a misconception?
A classic case of skewed perception?
I fervently do hope and pray
That u, bloggie, will tell me today
(all together now) A-Men

Yes i AM christian, and no i DONT pray to my blog. its a joke :D but yeah was kinda spooked by that whole mask thing.
weird dream last night.... dreamt i tried smoking. and liked it (!!!!!) actually i reckon i'd enjoy smoking. i just think its kinda dumb thats all. so i'll probably never try.
glad that several things are off my chest (its a pretty wussy chest..... cant take much. which makes me doubly glad things are off it :D ) guitar looks like its gonna be ok.... things in other areas are resolved. life looks ok now! its just those motherf**king things called exams which they have in that level of purgatory otherwise known as Junior College that i gotta worry about now. Oh well. one can only ask for so much. k im gone. keep it approximately approaching something resembling real.

Guitar's approaching

its coming man... its coming (not THAT u filthy pig i meant my guitar exam)... my hands are really hurting... left hand fingers are numb (oh dont say u STILL dunno which is which.. ok look. put the weed down in front of u. now stretch out a hand and pick it up. this's easy: if the hand on your right side picks it up, thats your right hand, if the hand on your left side picks it up, thats your left hand. Get it? :D ) so anw my exam's coming... kinda nervous but i think i'll be doing ok. which is GOOD news. aside from guitar nothing much is really happening... kinda boring really. well im gone.

my recent reading trend

man this blogging thing is slightly addictive :D well anw.... have u ever noticed how you're taste in the books u read can change? (im working on the basis that u DO actually read, possessing more than the most rudimentary skills necessart to read my blog :D) for me, its been a slow process. wat's funny is that some books which absolutely stumped me years ago have now become addictive. Anyone familiar with The Silmarillion? anw its by John Ronald Reuel (JRR to most) Tolkien. when i picked it up i think i was 12 years old, and it positively stalled me. i couldn't read it at all. (well i got to like page 12 which is nothing worth shouting abt) and yet when i tried again recently (2 years ago i think) i enjoyed it to the max. it was fantastic and i've now read it multiple times. anw since i started reading books longer than 30 pages i've always been a fantasy buff (fantasy encompassing sci-fi and fantasy). cept that recently i've started on more quirky books. i've read The Hitchhiker's Guide (all 5 books thank u:D) which started it all, Red Dwarf (good shit man!) and stuff. Special mention :Rupert Morgan. You've probably never heard of him (he's only written 2 books so far) but its cool. Catch 22 was a mind blower. Good News from Outer Space was a total trip (check out the acid-inspired cover man ). by far the most weird tho was A Clockwork Orange. it was fantastic (u sloshy wat im govereeting chellovecks?). so anw... recently i tho 'lets return to fantasy' so i went and picked up "a cavern of black ice" by JV Jones... it was good. but somehow didnt hit the spot noe wat i mean? fantasy just doesnt get me off anymore. In an entirely literary sense :D so im now reading Ben Elton's "This Other Eden". Good stuff. One last note though: no matter how far i drift from fantasy, Tolkien and Frank Herbert will always exert a pull on me. Kinda like gravity i spose. They're massive heavenly bodies and im a small speck. natural that they should pull me to them when you think of it. :D im gone

yay :D

hurrah i've managed to put some comments thingy in my blog... so now anyone who is reading this (please Lord let there be some :D ) can make comments. yay!

title??

dum di dum.....

title??

dum di dum.....

what IS it with boring days??

I really dunno how some days can strike one as being totally devoid of purpose. its really strange. sometimes i wake up all fired and ready to go... then other days i basically dont wake up the whole day really! today's one of the latter as you've probably guesses. oh well. anws.... there's really nothing much going on. aside from the fact that i have a diploma exam (!!!!!) this friday andd im getting worried. one would THINK that this would make my days anything but boring would one not?? but nooooooooooo its still a dead day. plus my fingers are aching from all the practice. burst a blood vessel in my little pinkie on the left hand. (for anyone reading this who isnt quite sure, the left hand is the one opposite the right hand. ok that really isnt much help im aware. basically if u dont know which hand is which, PUT THE WEED DOWN and go see some rehab bloke). i still dunno eaxctly who is reading this...... aside frm myself. oh well probably somewhere out there someone is. one can hope. alritey im gone.

i really like this for some reason:

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire,
I hold with those who favour fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice,
Is also great
And would suffice
- Robert Frost

Somehow it just gives me the willies. A poem well written is a thing of beauty.

hold on a sec.... i realise that i've said absolutely nothing abt myself. so i better let ya'll in on myself a lil. ok im lying..... im still at home alone with zilch to do. thats REALLY why im doing this. anw :D soooo... im 17, and have the singular fortune (or misfortune, depends on how u look at it) to be a half-caucasian, half-chinese guy living in Singapore, despite the fact that im an australian citizen and lived there till i was 8 1/2. currently im in Catholic Junior College (for those of u in the know abt s'pore JCs, it REALLT isnt that bad. I kinda like it) and taking History, Economics and English Lit. and yes i do take chinese :D man i really dunno who's gonna be reading this man. way weird.

wow. im becoming a blogger. Like, totally cool. waayyy cool dude. k whoever's reading this im messing with you with the totally and wayy crap. im alone at home and really bored.... so this looked like fun. hopefully when i actually have other ppl in the house this'll still be something i continue with. anw im outta here