before i start on this following segment, i could be wrong abt how i've interpreted it. but i doubt it. anyhow:

it amuses me that you pretend to be so sure of yourself and yet are insisting that i let go. (btw drop the faggy names la ok? whether or not this is abt me, u just shouldnt! its not right. :D ) anw. i fail to see how its your problem if im pathetic. that one really gets me. also.... if you havent got the message by now that at least some of the problem lies with me, and ALSO that it'll be me that has to be responsible to get things right, then i cant do anything more. my actions are affecting a whole lotta people? oh i'm sorry... how about the next time everyone decides to bitch about me and then get pissed (im not saying without merit mind you) you lot ask how im being affected, and then in future i'll live MY life in such a way so as not to affect you. sound about fair? point is: one cant live to always not affect others. first off, its impossible. and secondly, if one tries to live like that, well one fails to live. so if i've affected you well, i'd say im sorry but im not. i cant see how you'd have been adversely affected anw. all i've done is not talk to ya'll! not like i shot you or anything. there's a thin line between subtlety and attempting to disguise something. anw wats with "diguise" anw? wat exactly are you driving at? how abt YOU drop the subtlety why doncha. and my actions are s'posed to be geared in such a way that my message only goes out to the one intended. THAT'S my use for subtlety. but hey if it aint working, too damn bad. it kills me that YOU'RE the one rapping my knuckles abt subterfuge when its you that's posted the message. cant you see how that's just a little contradictory? i daresay even ironic? final note: i dunno why you're giving a damn in the first place. i cant see how any of this is your problem. u never want prying.... how about trying a little practicing what you preach eh? and "audience"..... bad choice of word there. in no way is anything im doing an attempt to pander to a crowd.

i trust that you (meaning the above :D) know that im not pissed. i also trust that you're talking abt what has been termed the "war". coz you've said u understand and believe me abt the other issue.everyone else seems to have difficulty sometimes telling whether i'm pissed or not. which is funny.... coz half of 'em have said they dont care anw.

all im doing as far as i can tell is avoiding contact. for the very dumb reason that im scared to do it. but a non-evil reason nonetheless. how is that any worse than when someone just doesnt wanna talk? since when do you people need me anyhow?

funny.... half of you are going to be pissed or whatever coz of the way my entry sounds. and yet that half of you write worse stuff in yours.

what makes it even better is that probably a whole lot of ppl are going to read this and then have a group discussion on it. or equally as possible (and capable of happening concurrently to the above event) is that the msg to which i havent received a reply will be shown around tonight or tomorrow and you lot will have yet another session.

yeah well... walk away from having read the above any way you want. its your life.


moving along..... :) you get that sherilyn? :D


check this out. i thought of it at some stage today. kinda along the lines of that Irish comedian thing mar sent me once. anyway:
"You're so full of yourself." "Well damn right i am. what are YOU full of? someone else?"

hey it makes sense! :D


The Rundown is a surprisingly good movie! three good movies in three days.... im on a roll! anw... the Rock's a pretty talented guy. but some of the stuff in the movie is preetty damn unbelievable. you'll understand if you watch it. plus there really are some pretty funny bits in it. "A little thunder..... a little lightning" :D you'll noe what i mean when u watch it.


When your father had your mother
your mother had your brother
its just too bad
your father's mad
your mother's
now your lover


(anyone get that?)


lessee....... MCQ wasnt fantastic.. but wasnt horrible either. Data response was ok too... nothing more than i expected which is good. i shoulda studied Money tho... probably lost 4 marks. it does help, though, if when trying to study one's notes ARE NOT IN SCHOOL :) yeah.

i was almost gonna do it today! almost...... but i didnt. dumb dumb me.


leaving the house later is good. lets me wake up later and take more time getting ready. pity its gonna be back to normal from next tuesday onwards.


Promos are as good as over. i mean, jokes about studying for NE tomorrow and everything aside, they really are. for better or for worse. i must say these have been THE most harrowing examinations i've ever had in my life. and it hasnt been solely because of studying and assorted stress. pity all that shit had to happen at this time. pity it had to happen at all really.


ppl are still at the using-timmy-to-leave-msgs thing. cmon wld i really leave "rugby" on chermaine's blog? no offence to the sport tho. i just aint a rugger.


one good thing is that i've drawn closer to ppl outside of school.... talking to them n going out n stuff. so mandy, paul, aaron, ben, josh, jessy and the rest... thanks. although i dunno how many of you are in here. half of you think blogging's gay anw :D


what should the first step be? i dunno... i might have left the whole thing too late. but i thought it might be good to leave a little breathing room... and nothing happened Monday morning so i left it at that. it wasnt me that wanted a face-to-face anw. so i figured i'd wait for someone else to make a move.


what right do you have to say whether i've let it go or not? what INFORMATION for that matter do you have to back up such a statement? none right? i thought as much. this's for the whole lotta you who keep telling me to: just back off for a while alright? just like other ppl i need solitude and stuff. so ease up a lil.


i'll leave you on that bright and cheery note.


Wasting your time, as usual?