and the war continues.

props and thanks to victor. means a lot to me. btw i have got a story to tell you. you'll hate it but you'll probably laugh too la :)


more, chermaine? alright here goes:
- I said its your fault? ok there's no point arguing. if i did, what i meant was tt i didnt see why you hadnt told her that i wasnt pissed at her any more. but evidently that was just a drop in this ocean of anger i'm drowning under here. so forget that whole thing.

- yup i noe u asked exo. i suggest YOU ask him again. anw frm what he's told me he said that my ang moh friend sent it rite? so either way it wasnt me. isnt that clear enough already? think abt it. i may bitch, but i've never actually said Bitch to any of the girls in T3 in anger before. and of all ppl i wldnt have started with you. sorry abt that whole thing though.

- if you really think its a trick of mine on victor's blog well i DONT GIVE A FUCK. (damn right im swearing. this issue in particular is pissing me off) im hoping victor noes its not me. but hey my conscience is clear and ppl always say thats what matters. so you go ahead and believe what you like.

- yup. u have tried to tell me whenever things are wrong. aside from the one incident i can think of off the top of my head. and thanks for that.

- damn straight we've had lotsa fun together :) more than enough. which is why if this friendship ends here, which to all intents and purposes it seems to be, so be it. i cant and wont ask for more. unless you want to be friends...?

god that was pathetic. but hey there it is.

the only thing i can think of that is good about this whole mess is that IF we still are friends after this ("we" meaning all - except for the ones who are completely lost to me) like chermaine said, im glad it got out. coz in the long run it really does help a whole lot.

oh yeah and chermaine: "& if thr's anythg ever that i did wrong.
i apologise." - as far as i can see, stuff that's already been sorted out aside, there's never been anything you've done wrong. so no apology necessary whatsoever.

**it feels so weird to see you online and yet not click on you to chat. i miss that so much. tempting to try! but hey at least now u dont cringe when you see me online. so u say. to think all this time u cringed. or was that just anger talking? i can only hope that some of the times u were alright. coz we had some good conversations.

looking back on the past few entries, it was only last Monday i was putting chermaine's name in BOLD just to make her laugh n stuff. and now things are like this. whatever i did and whatever else that's happened, life is an absolute fucking hell-hole sometimes.

one thing: chermaine i noticed u didnt mention back stabbing any more? why's that? something i said?

but hey whatever right? at this point in time i'd dearly love to just put everything behind us all. while that's impossible, some form of trade-off would be great too.

so God bless, everyone.

guess i'll see you lot and be ignored by ya'll on monday then eh? :)


and a fitting quote:

I wonder if it will be my friend?