Its been a while since I last came in here and said that its been a while since I said its been a while.
If that made any sense to you, you're seeing something I didn't put there!
(and no, the title means nothing at all. That shouldn't suprise you any more!)
I still find it deliciously self-assured, the way i always and unfailingly assume there are people out there, somewhere, who read my posts. Althought perhaps I only think that because to think otherwise, and to then have to type "That shouldn't suprise me any more!" is disturbingly schizophrenic.
Speaking of readership, it continues to disturb me how much people seem to appreciate and adore A) Xiaxue, and B) Harry Potter.
I've a feeling to pursue this will leave me about as popular as Salman Rushdie in Iran.
Alright then! =)A) XIAXUE
Let's just be frank: The girl's blog portrays her as a bitch (very carefully worded! Wendy Cheng may well be completely unlike how her blog makes her sound! Please duck your head as the pigs swoop by!). What with the consistent sprays of bile, vitriol and derision, the flaunting of her utter heartlessness (not giving up a seat to a pregnant woman because she didnt ask the woman to get pregnant? Oh dear I'm sorry Wendy, but I really didn't ask you to walk into my knife!) and her utterly deplorable (and this is the real clincher for me!) lack of anything ENRICHING to read, quite why anyone bothers with her blog is beyond one such as I. Maybe I have too many brain cells, maybe I have too few (or maybe I'm smart enough to know that its really not how many brain cells i have that determines my intelligence ANYWAY! - but that's beside the point) but I really can't understand why, for the life of me, when I search her on Yahoo (down with Google! If only for the bad colour scheme!) i get a whooping 121,000 entries.
That is both VERY VERY disturbing, and VERY VERY jealousy-inspiring. I will openly admit the latter :)
(just for the sake of an interesting - and depressing, it turns out - comparison, searching "alithien" on the same search engine gave me 35 results. Which, while not as bad as the rather slim, solitary and upright digit I had been expecting, is exactly 120,965 behind Ms Cheng. WHY! is it because I'm black?)
So what exactly is it? I mean the girl wins awards and stuff, and she gets a job writing for a local newspaper (the column is in a similar vein to her blog: bitchy, rather empty, and leaves a bitter aftertaste. Jokes aside, the one that I remember most - about her encounter with some poor sod at Delifrance - left me with the impression that she's a pig-headed, petulant person, who felt since she was paying she was entitled to anything she wanted.) and people donate money and stuff to her and all I can do is ask WHY WHY WHY the fuck WHY? I honestly do NOT understand.
Cheap rhyme time!
Why oh why do people flock
to gawk and love, but not to mock
- eyes to her webpage for to dock -
to Wendy Cheng's pink page?
to imbibe all of her hate and spite?
to indulge their voyeur's appetites?
because they cannot find MY site?
Or just because she's all the rage?
I wish I could just understand
Why people like her in this land
Why they even lend a hand
When she's in need and down?
For me I say stay far away!
Find another place to play
Hope she gets hacked again one day!
I'll pay! (spread word around!)
Before anyone calls their lawyers, rhyming's always in fun! I must protest that fact, at least. I was saddened to read that someone got into her stuff online, because it really really isn't the way to solve or prove anything.
No, i WASN'T sad just because I didn't hack into it first! I swear!
I should just clarify: I have nothing against her as a person. Indeed (and this only occurred to me as I was creating this post) i rather admire her for continuing to be unfailingly honest (at least, that's the premise!) in her blog, despite her increasing levels of fame. That really takes some spunk, i've gotta admit. Perhaps more than I have, myself. And besides, I have no RIGHT to have anything against her as a person, since I've never met her, I know nothing about her aside from the information her blog provides, and I shouldn't judge others in the first place - wishful thinking, but there it is. My only burning question is what is it about her that makes her so incredibly popular?????? Feedback will be much appreciated.
The question of popularity-which-is-for-the-life-of-me-beyond-my-understanding brings me to my second topic,B) Harry Potter
I'm not going to say much here. I could not, cannot and will not ever be able to understand why it was, is, and almost certainly will remain to be so mind-blowingly popular. I mean, J.K. Rowling is the all-time best-selling author! (and kudos to her, i must say) All i'm wondering is what is it that makes everyone go nuts over the books? I read a (in my opinion) highly respectable American reviewer say something along the lines of "in book 6 Rowling has revealed more and more of the brilliant and intricate world she has created." WHAT?! She's created NOTHING. Merely tacked on a half-world to reality. There's no significant history to her world, unlike Tolkien's, there's no great moral dilemma/ambiguity to it, unlike Donaldson's, there's nothing mindblowing in its scope a la
Herbert, there isn't any cunningly-shifty narrative such as in Wolfe's work.... There's NOTHING special about it!
Ok, so people make strange choices in books every now and then (The Da Vinci Code, actually, isn't
one of those strange choices. The subject matter really was compelling. It was just the writing which was painful). But to become so obsessed with the first book as to compound that strangeness over SIX NOVELS strikes me as somewhat bizarre.
Once again, feedback please! I'd love to know why everyone loves Harry Potter.
Oh and yes, I do read it. I never said it sucked! just that there's nothing special about it, to me at least.
Explain, i implore you! Or empathise with me, if that's your thing.
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19 years old, and I'm so glad I was there to celebrate it with you, and twice at that! There are images from that night which will stay with me for the rest of my life, and I'm so incredibly deliriously happy that I made you feel special. You're my princess, and I love you!
(everybody else, just politely avert your eyes, please)
swim between the never-seen
the ups and downs and in-betweens
capture life and what it means
then watch it slip away.