two sentences today have really shaken me up. in fact they've completely shell-shocked me.
both were in front of the whole class - which only helped to emphasise the truth of the statements.
the first: "Tim you're the only one in this class who can get straight As without really even trying hard"
and the second: "If you are the valedictorian next year Tim i won't be surprised at all"

both by JY, and coupled with the repeated statement that "Your only problem is that you're lazy. you're your own worst enemy."

now before you all run off thinking im an egotistical bastard, rest assured that the remainder of this part of the entry is GOING to sound completely arrogant. so leave now if necessary.

first off: my parents have been telling me this stuff for YEARS. ever since i started school in Singapore. but to have a teacher who is respected (although quite hated and despised at times) say the exact same things to me in front of my CLASS says a lot.
secondly: i've known this for YEARS myself. i've just been fucking lazy and submerged it all beneath my slack exterior.

what terrifies me now is that i've left everything too late and i'm not gonna make it thru to next year so i can prove her right. coz i noe she is (i warned you). my fucking promotional examinations are NEXT BLOODY WEEK. i HAVE to make it through. and if/when i do, i am going to FUCKING STUDY hard next year. coz like i've told a few people, i CAN be the top of the whole damn JC. 'cept for chinese (no surprises there).


please try to understand this ISNT arrogance. although it undoubtedly sounds like it.


WEDNESDAY:
pretty good day!

its always nice to have people arnd you who you genuinely enjoy talking to. coz even when u arent talking to them they're there to be talked to. y'noe what i mean? n wednesday was like that. felt great. harked back to the days when i REALLY felt alive. if ya'll noe what i mean.

PROBABLY you dont. but who gives a damn?

yeah it was a pretty good day. some interesting things too that i saw :) i must say you're look has changed a bit in a few ways. but remember, it was only ever the legs that looked fat :D thanks for that. was fun in a quiet soft manner.

cant ALWAYS be hyper n loud and talkative. it aint healthy!

cant remember the rest. its all a nice haze kinda.

THURSDAY
6 people (including me) came to school today. what more can i say?
felt lonely..... missed quite a few ppl actually! sad sad sad sad sad.
PLUS one of them had my outline :)

felt a bit of the old bug setting in. tried (almost succesfully) to quash it. will do my darnest to suppress/burn/kill/destroy! it

after school went to exo's place!!


i LIKE it. but he was a FUCKING FAT BASTARD BEFORE!!!!!!!!!
he really was.

anw. messed arnd for a while.


this is for Victor: HE CAN FUCKING SKATE LA.
just to make sure you know


what else?

that's about it.


oh yeah check this out:
Before you judge a person, walk a mile in his shoes first. that way, once you've walked a mile away from him, you still dont like him, AND you have his shoes.


hahahahahahahahaahhaah. cracked up when i read that :D


toodle-doo ya'll


In space, no one can hear you scream...