I turn to my mirror - that which reflects myself, that i can talk to and expect full comprehension from - and am met with only a bland, unwitting, confused wall which is of no use to me. and what good is that?
yellow ain't MY personal fav colour, but i'm guessing you'll catch the reference. the mirror metaphor isn't the best, but it does reflect (hahahaha) something of what i feel i guess.
like i said, its kinda sad... i miss the way things were, that's for sure. this is all pretty fucked up. i mean i can't carry out a half decent conversation with what i'm stuck with at the moment without throwing my hands up in the air and giving up!! not that it was just the conversation LA (special nod to Khoo there) its really just the comprehension. but what the hey it could be much much worse.
but putting the class on us as SPIES or GUARDS?? that's pretty damn fucking extreme. (i'm serious here, so forget abt using "en". "ing" is for the real shit :D)
felt good to do the right thing and give Fahy his work today, it really did. it'll feel bad on Friday when he returns it, having read it and discovered it to be the shit it really is :)
there're two people (both female, coincidentally) i could quite gladly kill right now.
with you, its the same old thing. it just seems incredibly fucking rude (kindly note the use of "ing" once more) to swoop in uninvited and claim someone who was already engaged in an existing conversation or WHATEVER the fuck it was! what can i do? fall behind and just watch you, the bitch that you sometimes are, saunter off. you just bide your time until we like go round a corner or something and you spring from behind like some predatory rat... if you DON'T manage to squeeze your way in, you just hover around behind until you DO, eavesdropping on everything, and butting in where unwanted. you have no fucking DECORUM, that's what it is. clingy sucker.
(maybe unwarranted anger, some of it. and i said "the bitch that you SOMETIMES are, so i dont hate her. just incredibly pissed off - increasingly so every day)
and then there's you: you're just arrogant and afraid to admit it. that kinda gutlessness just makes me irate that's all. spose you're just human.
alright so most of my anger's for the former person, i guess
yeah it really really really annoys me. this whole thing abt seating just kinda makes it worse, in ways i can't explain (and that's saying something!! :D)
its good to know that its not where we sit that really matters...... there was a time when i thought it did. that things'd all fall apart when moved apart. stupid eh? what the subconscious does. but a very powerful thing, too - always remember that.
manipulation 101.
yellow ain't MY personal fav colour, but i'm guessing you'll catch the reference. the mirror metaphor isn't the best, but it does reflect (hahahaha) something of what i feel i guess.
like i said, its kinda sad... i miss the way things were, that's for sure. this is all pretty fucked up. i mean i can't carry out a half decent conversation with what i'm stuck with at the moment without throwing my hands up in the air and giving up!! not that it was just the conversation LA (special nod to Khoo there) its really just the comprehension. but what the hey it could be much much worse.
but putting the class on us as SPIES or GUARDS?? that's pretty damn fucking extreme. (i'm serious here, so forget abt using "en". "ing" is for the real shit :D)
felt good to do the right thing and give Fahy his work today, it really did. it'll feel bad on Friday when he returns it, having read it and discovered it to be the shit it really is :)
there're two people (both female, coincidentally) i could quite gladly kill right now.
with you, its the same old thing. it just seems incredibly fucking rude (kindly note the use of "ing" once more) to swoop in uninvited and claim someone who was already engaged in an existing conversation or WHATEVER the fuck it was! what can i do? fall behind and just watch you, the bitch that you sometimes are, saunter off. you just bide your time until we like go round a corner or something and you spring from behind like some predatory rat... if you DON'T manage to squeeze your way in, you just hover around behind until you DO, eavesdropping on everything, and butting in where unwanted. you have no fucking DECORUM, that's what it is. clingy sucker.
(maybe unwarranted anger, some of it. and i said "the bitch that you SOMETIMES are, so i dont hate her. just incredibly pissed off - increasingly so every day)
and then there's you: you're just arrogant and afraid to admit it. that kinda gutlessness just makes me irate that's all. spose you're just human.
alright so most of my anger's for the former person, i guess
yeah it really really really annoys me. this whole thing abt seating just kinda makes it worse, in ways i can't explain (and that's saying something!! :D)
its good to know that its not where we sit that really matters...... there was a time when i thought it did. that things'd all fall apart when moved apart. stupid eh? what the subconscious does. but a very powerful thing, too - always remember that.
manipulation 101.
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