there's a test tomorrow.
 
BUT I DON'T CARE.
 
people keep asking me fucken invasive questions.
 
BUT I DON'T CARE (anymore, that is).
 
sometimes the rest of the world gets on my fucken nerves.
 
i'd be lying if i said i don't care, even if i didnt say it in CAPS.
 
 
 
 
 
 
sometimes you just gotta wonder where the drive and all went. what'd it get sucked down into? some eternal dark black hole? coz i'm sure i didnt start out like this.
 
 
 
(truly concerned? or just another drama wannabe mouthing off? you decide - but dont tell me. frankly speaking i couldnt give a fuck)
 
 
 
two steps back you're in my space
- Personal Space Invader-
 
 
 
i am the Nina, the Pinta, the Santa Maria, the noose and the rapist, the field's overseer, the agents of orange, the priest of Hiroshima, the cost of my desire. sleep now in the fire.
 
( i cant take credit for that. its from "The Cost of my Desire" by Rage Against the Machine)
 
 
 
 
 
how much of a put down is too much, and how much is just right? hard to draw the line until you've crossed it. if only we had "back buttons" eh?
 
what a load of crap THAT all was in school. although the questions and ideas that were raised, while not explored (of course. its GP. since when are INTELLIGENT concepts discussed?) were fun. i always enjoy them.
for example, the standard classic: if a tree falls in a forest, but there's no living animal there to witness the fall (or hear it) does the tree, for all intents and purposes, make a sound? think abt that one. standard philosopy question.
 
and another one: if you go back into the past and kill your grandmother as a baby, don't u then cease to exist, coz u killed your grandmother, which stops your mother from being born, thus denying YOU a chance at life? so what would happen? the moment you kill your grandmother, you'd disappear? but then if you disappear, your grandmother wouldnt be killed right? which would mean you would live, which would mean you'd kill her........................ BUT.
 
another standard one there. nothing new i came up with. (altho khoo didnt know abt it AT ALL. just goes to show how vital science fiction is to a decent, all-rounded education)
 
 
there's kinda so much i wanna say, but no way of expressing it. plus the CIA's always out there, listening, observing............ so yeah :)
 
 
 
plus who knows who i'd scare if i said everything?
 
 
 
 
 
 
Goodnite, Ganesh.