hmm its kinda strange that the poem i closed with yesterday should've foreshadowed one of today's sentiments so uncannily. since it must be important, here it is again:

sometimes i feel so alone
i feel like i might die
lonely like the sun, i feel.
alone i drift across the sky.


really, the emotion i picked was completely random. had nothing to do with how i felt at the time. like i said, uncanny.



but anyhow, enough of that. i'll fix things up in THAT area tmr, see if i dont. and if i get stabbed in the ankle, well so be it. my ankle can take it :)



aside frm that it really WAS quite a depressing day........ overcast (altho it was bright for like 10 minutes), first day back at school - and today wasnt even full-on. downright slack really. tomorrow will only be worse.


one of the signs of strangeness in the world (as seen by the author)
: Hanson released their first album, which featured Mmmbop (uh huh that annoying-but-catchy song... kinda like Barney's theme song.............. wait, just me? ) and it sold 8 million copies in the states. they released their second album, with the MUCH better song (in my humble opinion - isnt it amazing that online chatters shorten that to IMHO?! that's sick, really) This Time Around, and it only sells 1 million copies in the US. why? because the average buyer of CDs has no musical taste whatsoever. I think.



it gets on my FUCKING NERVES (u feelin me?) when i become the target of someone who feels a need to satisfy their inferiority complex. it really makes me all radrez (havent used Clockwork Orange lingo for a while - its quite refreshing, you sloshy what i'm govereeting? :D)

another thing is just straight out discourtesy or whatever you wanna call it. just coz i dont KICK your ass outta my territory (another 4 letter word here would make what i'm talking abt just too obvious. you never know who reads these things - although i DO know you're in here CIA. you can come out now guys, i wont bite) doesnt mean you can stay where you are.



but enough negativity. that scene in Spiderman 2 where he gets gently body-surfed after saving the train? tell me that isnt an intensely spiritual scene. its evocative of what it would look like if Mel Gibson had shot the lowering of Christ's body off the cross - i think in much the same way would Mary, Peter and John have lowered Jesus' body to the ground. and that's the big similarity between them - they both sacrificed for others. so where're the Jesus Christ comics, i ask you?





anger blasts right through my mind
ripping across my neurons, red.
in my mind's eye i watch her die
and lies there as she bleeds. bled.