why do birds ...fall down from the sky
every time ... you walk by
just like me ... they seem to be
dead with you

why do stars ... seem to lose their shine
when you say ... "you are mine"
just like me ... they long to be
far from you



:D hahahaha you n i both know who y'can dedicate that one to. altho i actually think the second verse is better suited to another. i'm thinking along the lines of someone u tried to convinve me you'd had criminal activities with.



who the hell'd guess what i'm talking abt, eh?



biggest news of the moment: i PASSED everything and will be getting all my money back soon soon soon soon soon soon soon soon.


LOTS of money.


LOTS. yay :)


second thing: birthday's this sunday!!! so close..... i'm getting fucking old. its depressing.


while depressed abt leaving Australia, i must say, in some ways its damn good to be back. surprised how much i missed some.



mike check ha aha
i be the anti myth rythym rock shocker.

tonight's my last night here and i'm really pretty damn sad for a number of reasons:

leaving here means going back to s'pore. hot, humid and wet

leaving here means going back to work. boring, long and unrewarding

leaving here means going back to SCHOOL. while the company's pretty rad, it is still school, in the final analysis.

leaving here means leaving AUSTRALIA. this's the most important one. its my home, n i'll miss it lots

leaving here means leaving beaches and decent skate parks. which is a sad sad thing too.

leaving here means leaving my family that's here. which is sad too.


and the list goes on and on.

but enough of that. leaving here means that soon i'll be seeing some important ppl soon too: my family, the people in school, JACK (hahahahah wait till you see me drop in y'bitch) dawn steph charlene rachel and the rest. so that's a good thing.



goddamn i'm fucking miserable abt leaving.


went to Bondi today. nice LOOKING beach, but absolutely SHITTY surf. tried surfing, body boarding AND skimming (which is pretty damn lame really - but kinda fun :D) and none of them were wicked. very sad, really.

did get a nice Rusty cap tho. i like it :)


as i leave australia
my mind fills
effortlessly, but also in an acutely
painful
manner. cerebral damage is almost sure
to result from this.
this misery, this pain
this feeling of loss.
it inundates the being
like a tidal wave.

alright quickie update for myself (future reference) and for those as care - or say they do :)

i am BURNT as FUCK.

that day after my last blog entry? surfed for 5 hours straight.... but without a wetsuit or sunblock

as i sit here my face is peeling, and my back itches like fuck.


but i caught some GREAT waves that day.

PLUS PLUS PLUS: did my first real trick - albeit inadvertently. get this : a front flip. that's a somersault ON THE BOARD ( this was while i was bodyboarding - similar to surfing, just that u lie down) anw i was with aaron and we both caught a real ripper.... so we're riding it in and he looks to his right and sees (this's wat he said later) my head disappear, then my whole body catapault outta the water with me legs describing an arc whilst kicking as if swimming. pretty damn cool. like i said, the first time was luck. but i got the knack of it afterwards... even repeated it on my surfboard. the trick is to catch the wave, then when you're riding it in, push the nose down like u would to pick up speed, but push it down REAL hard. if u catch the wave a bit too soon it works best - the wave pushes u under and u kinda pop back up.

wayyyy cool :)


missing you a fair bit. why aren't we ever online at the same time?!! as u said, -big bear hug- -if u read this.

its good that *you managed to make it online at the same time as me for once though. rare occasion :)


ah well the time is drawing to an end. there's heaps more to say, but if i stick arnd to say it i'll wake up late tomorrow and waste the day. so adieu ya'll.

went to manly and SURFED!!!


got wiped out by a wave real bad at one stage tho. that hurt like fuck. banged my head on a rock underwater.


ouch!! for real.

plus the board wasnt so good. hadta hire one.. heavy as fuck.

but wat the hell.


had some great food today too. a foot high ice cream - no shit. plus a great burger too. wicked!!

i am NOT gonna pig out! especially on your behalf! god that'd mean eating entire CAFES at one sitting!

that's incredibly expensive y'noe.


:)


going out early tomorrow to get some early surf. that'll be cool.

actually it'll be prettyy goddamn COLD. the weather's been pretty damn chilly, strangely.



i'll close with this:


Australians all let us rejoice
for we are young and free
we've golden soil for wealth and toil
our land is girt by sea.

g'day mates.

:) uh huh im down here Down Under.

and let me tell you, the women are HOT HOT HOT. n i havent even seen the naked ones at Bondi yet!!

that's quality man! that they dont even hafta be NAKED before i'll say they're hot. that's a measure of how GORGEOUS some of them are!!

of course, Oz wldnt be a white country without us having our fair share of FAT ASS (we aint talking Pretty Hot And Tempting either) girls. but u gotta have the good with the bad doncha noe?


so there it is. pretty much turned on all the time. its a good thing :)


misssing people!! oh god btw i worked out that phonecall last night - abt half an hour - god that was like twenty bucks. but still, it was worth it. aside from being great to talk to u, i also received the excellent news (thanks again) that i got a B for my econs DRQ. a B dammit!! that's GREAT!!! and 15/30 for MCQ. alright that's not so hot. but still!!!


really was nice to catch up a little too. u were all "hi... OH HI OH MY GOD TIM!" heh it was hilarious.


so what've i been doing? yesterday i was WASTED.... SO tired. the flight and transit n all took 17 hours. just frm Spore to Sydney!! long story.

cool flight tho. they had the personal tv screens n all..... plus free flow of beer. it was hilarious - coz it was a flight to sydney (ie OZ) which is beer land, together with the usual orange juice they also had BEER in lil plastic glasses. it was great!! so there they were, walking down the aisle: "beer anyone?" aaron n i were like "yes ma'am!!!" then they walk BACK, and we're like "another one please!!" so she gives us two more. then she's walking by later empty handed, looks at us, and says "wld u like another beer?" and we go "ok!!" so she brings us Tiger - not my fav, but what the hell. then later we're like "foster's please!!" right on. so long story short, we had 6 beers apiece. too bad we didnt ask for shots :D

but we did swim and skate yesterday - ollieing down a steep hill is FUCKING scary. but it really helps to improve one's ollie. confidence counts for a lot.

the pool was FUCKING COLD. the coldest ever.

today was chilly too!! goddamnit it really was pretty cold. which was nice for a change.
bought a 7 day all-transport pass and went into town... where we crashed an aquarium - it was so cool. the tickets are $24 per person, so we walked to the exit and walked in :) very rad inside too.

took a whole buncha photos of the Opera House and the Bridge.... plus some lil fishes too. then took the ferry out, realised we had NO FUCKING IDEA how to get frm the ferry to the train, got off, waited an hour for the next one n went back to circular quay. wicked :)


had my first meat pie in a while today as well. went down really nice.


that's it for me for today. oh yeah tomorrow - we've found a skate park - i'm going skating big time. that'll be cool. also going rock climbing!!! which'll be fun. and hopefull going to Bondi. altho it's so damn cold..... the women wont be naked . awwwwwwww :)


missing some of you! thankful the others aren't here!!

:) heh cya.

aright its been a LOOOOOOOOONG time


as in LONG LONG LONG LONG LO--

you get the picture.

:)


i must admit i've kinda missed blogging slightly. there's a release which accompanies typing.

obviously there's too much to actually come out and SAY (like wtf my last post was more'n two WEEKS ago!!) so this'll just be what's bouncing around the ol cranium.



then again that's usually what it is anyhow isn't it?
as you can tell i'm slightly lost :)


as Term 1 draws to a close, as usual i find myself reflecting/ruminating/just plain old thinking abt what's gone by the last ten or so weeks. in total i'd say its been pretty damn fantastic - especially in relation to last year. coupla shout outs:

first off heeellooo (that doesnt quite sound like u tho :D) mar. thanks for being everything u have been this year. u noe the deal :) God you're great. thanks for the company and talk and food and dogs and all. and thanks to your mum too :) no idea where i'd be without u - but at least the school wldnt think we're sleeping together :D but enough of this mushiness. anyone would think we didn't hate each other! :)

Exo! wtf man :) fuck u for all the punches and shit. thanks for the continued use of your board (altho the bearings are MINE) thanks for not being a sell out too. you're a good guy - some of the time - - when you're sleeping - _|_


Timo: hahahaha its cool to have you in the same class as me man. still feel shitty over that comment i made in the canteen in retaliation to your skater jibe. big big appy-polly-logies. God bless.

Grace: you wont even see this (anyone feel free to give her the addy - actually just dish it out generally speaking. who gives a fuck?) but its been fun sorta getting to noe u. hope everything turns out alright. 5th of april eh? get me something i'll get u..... well, something :)

the rest: i hate your fucking guts. :) nah you're all cool too.

aside frm CJ:

Aaron: fuck it we're gonna be spending 2 weeks down under together. fuck writing abt u :)

JacK: my TRUCKS man you BITCH!! :) but seriously thanks for the encouragement and all that. keep it real.

Steph: god you're FAT!! :) up yours. i'll miss u slightly (in my spare time) doncha just wish u were coming with us?! :)

dawn: get that bass sounding good by the time i'm back or i swear to GOD i'll take it from you. :)



everyone else in Bedok - i'll be thinking of you while i'm laying down my big phat lazy crail transitions in Oz. :D break something.




in case you havent gathered, i'm leaving next Monday. TWO FUCKING DAYS!! (hahahaha mar at least i'll stop telling you how many are left :D)

leaving on a jet plane
dont noe when i'll be back again
its Malaysian Air so they might hit the ground


hhahahahaha :) i'll miss lots of you.... the ones i'll miss the most i've already expressed this to (and it was kinda cool to hear the feeling was mutual. thanks)



spending time with *you's made me think a lot more abt relationships - whether of the BGR type or just friendships. it seems the whole thing's a pretty damn bleeding mess - ppl just get hurt 24/7. everything's confusing, everything's a goddamn mind game... what the fuck is wrong with people? so i'm glad there seems to be very little - or none, optimistically speaking - of that in our friendship. stab me if i start fucking things up "aight" :)

on a darker tone, just what IS wrong with relationships? everyone around seems to be all gloomy abt one thing or another... either they've broken up and are uphappy, or they're together and unhappy. what the FUCK!! think abt it ppl. really.

i sure am.



i could go on and on and on and on abt how much some of you mean to me...... and then go on some more. im sure u noe who u are. and that's wat matters.
i cld ALSO go on and on abt how some of you mean absolutely nothing to me. Yin and Yang, eh? :) good and evil, two sides of a coin, a double edged sword...... the list goes on.

and all mean the same thing. talk abt REDUNDANCY.


enjambment. godDAMN how the FUCK does that word get pronounced that way!



anyhow.


i'm heading to australia
but i'll really miss t3
sitting in the small front row
fio mar exo n me

the endless endless chattering
on either of my sides
the way that teachers always launch
into their diatribes

(speaking of that bloody word
just WTF was it doin
in our fuckin GP paper!
half the school probably didnt noe what it was!)

i'll be thinking of u all
while i'm down there popping ollies
suntanning down at Bondi
checking out the naked Aussies

but we'll see each other soon enough
so i spose its all ok
oh yeah, and just in closing
its two more days, by the way.


:D


love ya all. catch ya when i'm back!!

and mar, our deal stands dont worry. no one touches my cast (if any!) till u sign it :)



peace, love, hate, war, skateboarding, surfing, beer.
that's it. i'm outta here.