tonight's my last night here and i'm really pretty damn sad for a number of reasons:

leaving here means going back to s'pore. hot, humid and wet

leaving here means going back to work. boring, long and unrewarding

leaving here means going back to SCHOOL. while the company's pretty rad, it is still school, in the final analysis.

leaving here means leaving AUSTRALIA. this's the most important one. its my home, n i'll miss it lots

leaving here means leaving beaches and decent skate parks. which is a sad sad thing too.

leaving here means leaving my family that's here. which is sad too.


and the list goes on and on.

but enough of that. leaving here means that soon i'll be seeing some important ppl soon too: my family, the people in school, JACK (hahahahah wait till you see me drop in y'bitch) dawn steph charlene rachel and the rest. so that's a good thing.



goddamn i'm fucking miserable abt leaving.


went to Bondi today. nice LOOKING beach, but absolutely SHITTY surf. tried surfing, body boarding AND skimming (which is pretty damn lame really - but kinda fun :D) and none of them were wicked. very sad, really.

did get a nice Rusty cap tho. i like it :)


as i leave australia
my mind fills
effortlessly, but also in an acutely
painful
manner. cerebral damage is almost sure
to result from this.
this misery, this pain
this feeling of loss.
it inundates the being
like a tidal wave.