before i forget:

JET BLACK NEW YEAR

Don't even take a breath
The air is cut with cyanide
In honor of the New Year

The press gives us case to celebrate:
These air raid sirens
Flood barbed wire skylines
By artificial night,
As we sleep to burn the red
From our bloodless lives.
Tonight we're all time bombs
on fault lines.

Have we lost everything now?
We're walking
like each other's ghosts
Around these silent streets
(the sedatives tell you everything
is alright)

Like calendars dying
at New Year's Eve parties
As we kiss hard on the lips
and swear this year
will be better then the last
Jet Black - the ink that spells your name
Jet Black - The blood that's in your veins
We say, "How long can we take this chance not to celebrate?"

There's music playing
But we dance to the beat
Of our own black hearts
And draw diagrams
Of suicide on each other's wrists
Then trace them with razorblades

Fire to flames
"Strike Match."

Burn these words from our lips
As 'The Daggar' screams
"Love is dead"
and it's a "newspaper tragedy,"

Have we lost what we love?
Have we said everything?
Does it change anything?
Stare at the clock
Avoid at all costs,
This emptiness.

Ten seconds left
until midnight
nine chances to drown ourselves
in black hair dye
eight faces turned away
from the shock:
seven windows and six of them
were locked
five stories falling
forever and ever
three cheers to the mirror
now there are two of us
can we have one last dance?
How long can we take this chance not to celebrate life?
----Thursday----

Im telling ya'll this song is fucking good. but DONT let that fool u into thinking their other songs are good. (Vic: "if we run..... far away... maybe we'll find someone/ who'll listen to our songs" :D ) Not that thursday sucks. friday n monday are actually the worst days. we finish so late n all......... bite me :)

k so i havent blogged for a lil while. to all my loyal fans out there (possibly that sentence shld be re-written as "to my only loyal fan" or even "to everyone who reads my blog, even if it is when u are left with NOTHING else to do". k enuff self-deprecation :D ) i apologise. last night i just didnt have the creative energy to blog.

lemme think for a while
about wat i've done
over the course of the last few days.
nothing, really. you see
i'm really quite slack
and quite undeserving of praise :D

on thursday.... cant even remember wat happened in school. after school i ran 10 rounds (yes 10. wipe that bloody disbelieving look off ur face bfore i do it for u!) with mar. Gillian was there but she really cant be said to have run "with" us. she sorta tried to keep up. the absoulute WORST part of that whole excercise was when gill, mar n I locked arms n skipped (yes skipped. dont push it) around the track. with like PE CLASSES, MR LEONG AND MISS GIAM AND THE SCHOOL SOCCER TEAM watching. i cld have crawled into a hole and DIED. (except that wlda made mar real happy and we cant have that now can we? :D )

if i would die
no one wld cry
in fact some wld be happy.
how sad, u say
that none wld pray.
how downright fucking nappy.
oh well, u see
im quite used to it
besides i feel the same
they ALL can die
n i WONT cry.
yeah right. course i wld. i'll stop being lame

one thing that pissed me off on thursday: was going home with mar n while we were on the bus we met matthew and aaron. (no thats not wat pissed me off. they're not that bad la :D ) now aaron's mixed... half indian and half chinese. so they call him a "chindian". ok so he can probably live with that. but then they started giving him shit abt his mixed blood! i mean cmon u bloody neanderthals. surely u can find something PERSONAL abt him to insult him abt right. to me having to resort to someone's racial mix is just plain, bloody, fucking stupid. (if ur getting the impression that im slightly upset abt this, why ur a genius. wat was it that tipped u off????) the most uncanny thing was that he reacted the same way i did before and do still sometimes now. "Bloody chinese". which is really quite sad coz we both have Chinese blood. but wat choice do we have? its ppl like those bastards on the bus that force us to sometimes ignore our Chinese heritage (which i will not deny) in favour of the part of us that is receiving the flak. the old saying abt taking people's insults n making them a part of u so they dont hurt anymore.

anyway i digress. enough of that bas negative cosmic karma floating around. we dont want that kinda energy man. like jah.

(as u may be able to tell i've snapped outta it :D )

now FRIDAY: interesting day. nothing particularly fun abt the school bit. but mar n i skipped pauline chua's prac crit lesson. we wound up at her place. not quuuuuite wat i expected. in no way less though. and MY GOD i'm in love with max. i never want to see Rusty though. she sounds like the ultimate dog from hell (mar i can see u nodding :D ) had fun looking thru pics n stuff. no WAY that photo is u mar. no WAY :D

im done with this day
its grown old n boring
I'm gonna crash now
Dont expect a warning
got some Journey tomorrow
so i need my sleep
besides,outta the guys online
Not one little peep
can i hear out of them
they're keeping real quiet
I wonder why?
maybe they're all on a diet
one so damn extreme
they're no longer breathing
(now THERE'S one way to lose weight.
coz when u stop breathing u tend to start decomposing n all.
absolute guaranteed weight loss :D )
anw ill spare ya'll the pain
of reading more crap
goodnight world!
time i hit the sack.