-insert decent start to this entry here-

sorry couldnt think of anything to start this off :D

lets see. today.... was ok i guess. talked quite a bit more than's normal to Kristen. ur a very interesting person y'noe.... if u see this, God bless u ya lil minah-lian-western mix :)

aside frm that, wat else. hmmmm. i think i was a lil bitchy today. just got a lil sick of being told to shut up n of ppl telling other ppl to ignore me n all. realise i was outta line. so to those who are concerned - i really am sorry - .

moving on from that icky topic.... nothing new on THAT front (cmon we all noe wat im talking abt. the war in Iraq man! like totally!!! :D sure....... ) but yeah nothing new. if anything its in regression. which's kinda sad.
wat else can i say
abt wat happened today
i dunno. there really aint much
sure i made mistakes
(hope no one's heart breaks)
good i hang with a really great bunch

i've been thinking: how'd our class be today if Brenda was still in it? it'd probably be really different. funny how little things make a difference aint it? like the fact that Brenda left the class has made a lotta difference.

another thing that hit me. we were doing Mazzini in History today, and JY was calling him a loser and a clown. thing is, he was so serious n dedicated n obviously a very intelligent man who fervently believed in what he was trying to achieve, but just didnt have the luck or foresight to acheive it. wat struck me as really sad was that a little over 100 years after his death he's being ridiculed in History lessons thousands of miles away from where he lived out his life! thats really sad. kinda puts things in perspective. wat we do now really isnt gonna count for shit in one or two lifetimes. so we all shldnt get too hung up on stuff now. -mar, dunno if u got wat i was trying to say when i told u in the lecture. hope this's made it clearer. i hardly ever make sense i noe :D

NOTE: i DONT mean that we shld be apathetic abt life. nonono thats not it at all. just that we shldnt assign more significance than necessary to earthly matters. yeah im going all cosmic-philosophical on ya'll i noe :)

break out break out ya'll
n start something real
something genuinely new
something we'll all feel

something unique
n comepletely pure
something abt which
one's never fully sure

something which keeps us
on the tip of our toes
who's gonna invent this?
nobody knows.

there i go again. i want something REAL in my life. k so wat i want is actually out there. i just want IT. but there must be something more to life y'noe? at least i've got God. no ridiculousness intended. i really am glad i can pray to Him any time.
but still i want something. something that makes each day fresher than it otherwise is. something that makes one consider things in a different light.

give me her
or give me death
she's wat i think of
with every breath

when i wake up
the first thing i do
is to think of her.
yeah girl. i think of YOU.

it makes things easy
for my little brain
its just "think bout her!"
so there's very lil pain

aside frm the feeling
i get in my stomach
when it goes all hollow.
n then there's the heartache.

i miss her all day
wat more can i say
each day i pray
that with me she'll stay.

not bad huh? :D i'll leave it to the viewer's discretion to decide whether or not any of the stuff in that poem is autobiographical in nature.

just recieved an sms frm mar letting me noe she's leaving the house n isnt going to the Esplanade. (short note: there's a guitar thing goin on there. some outdoor concert) awwww was hoping someone'd be able to tell me how it went. oh well.
ever notice how nice it can be to receive a msg outta the blue? not necessarily an sms. a call or an email does it too. k maybe in this case im a lil bias coz its mar n all ( :D ) but still i think it holds for everyone. remember that!! it doesnt take much to make someone happy. (personally i really like the casual smile. both parties enjoy it)

hmmm wat lyrics are cool... lemme think.

got it.

here ya'll go:

CRUSHED

It's limp bizkit
And this is how we learn

You can't talk to me
You're not supposed be, in my face
So get the fuck outta my face
Why you insist?
You gotta talk that shit,
You gotta keep that dog-ass breath
All up in my face

But I remember when,
you would never lie to a friend
cause you were so high,
you were so shy,
you were so fucked up anyway

life keeps on tickin'
tickin' tickin' into the future
cause this is how we learn
somebody better stop me
or at least stop this beat
before we start getting outta hand
cause this is how we learn
and this is how we burn
somebody better stop me
or at least stop this beat
before we start getting outta hand
cause this is how we learn
and this is how we burn

you can't erase me,
I'm alive as I can be, in your face
So get the fuck outta my face
Why you insist?
just gotta turn out like this,
you're gonna burn out like this all up in my face

but I remember how
you said you want it all and you want it now
cause you were so young,
you were so dumb
you were so fucked up anyway

life keeps on tickin'
tickin' tickin' into the future
cause this is how we learn
somebody better stop me
or at least stop this beat
before we start getting outta hand
cause this is how we learn
and this is how we burn
somebody better stop me
or at least stop this beat
before we start getting outta hand
cause this is how we learn
and this is how we burn

----Limp Bizkit----

damn good song. but d/l the remiz version frm New/Old songs. much better version.

ho hum. think i better call it a day. peace out