things seem to have stopped... maybe those anonymous taggers ran out of testosterone pills.

we'll never know.

hey you noe there's like Alchoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous and stuff? you could have one for ppl that never stop talking. it'd be called "On and On Anon".

:)

i've got an interview today at some music school.. it'd be cool to be teaching more music. but i gotta admit i'm kinda scared. the pay is MUCH better though! like this company that my dad deals with sometimes... they charge $60 an hour and UPWARDS. (that means it gets MORE expensive). now of course i cant quite charge that much. but i can reasonably expect $20 or $30 at least. which is MUCH better than the shit that starbucks and mcdonalds pays.

so pray for the interview aye? :)
its at 4.30 though so i miss volleyball again. dammit i was trying to be committed.

fuck this shit with my dad. its driving me up the wall. i gotta stockpile a WHOLE LOTTA MONEY for next year. completely fucked up holidays i'm telling you. one good thing though. people who WERE going back to the states apparently are now staying. well at least some of them. good good good! stay HERE jack! :)

i wonder what on Earth happened to what was?

dazed by my life
i spiral down
and just before
i hit the ground

you emerge out of darkness
shining like the sun
you saved my life.
but does that make you the one?

i'm just not sure.

__________________________

dont ask. i dont know myself.


*fuck you.

always so paranoid. always so goddamn uptight. always ready to lash out. what the FUCK is it.

aint worth worrying over anyhow :)

its all just drifting away
i dont quite know why
but strangely enough,
im not tempted to cry

instead, i let it slip past
not really giving two cents
it aint worth it really.
"were friends". past tense.

nice little bit of rhyme there. and no it isnt autobiographical in nature.
altho it does kinda feel like things are slipping across the board. holidays are a boon and a bane.

Go check out Jeff Lowe sometime. he's really pretty rad. kinda dark stuff... but worth a look. props to Chels for that :)

some things i'd change
some things i wont
sometimes they do
sometimes they dont

is it worth it, methinks,
to endlessly fret?
crying tears on and on
leaving your face wet?

much better, one feels
to let sleeping dogs lie
and if it must happen
the friendship will die.


i aint saying nothing.

still pissed off that i didnt get the money i was told i'd receive! its sad that the Christian world is so often like that just because we're expected to not protest. right and wrong remain right and wrong, irregardless of religion. or at least they should.

although i spose right and wrong do differ from faith to faith. like for a Buddhist its wrong to eat beef right? whereas for Christians that's fine. same for pork for muslims. in fact i think Christians have the most liberal eating rules! thank God for that :)
no offence to other religions though.

gotta be sensitive these days. think about America. isnt it ironic that the only stereotype one can safely insult these days is the straight White male? that kills me.

seatbelts!

NOW i miss T3. dammit.