man i ache. and im tired. and im kinda mixed up inside. the fact that im tired is a large contributing factor to that last one.


here's something i thought of today:

trucks and risers, wheels and bearings
grip tape and Zero decks.
ollying high, grinding the kerb
sprained wrists and broken necks.


nice bit of skate stuff there. im hoping aaron can find me a deck or two in Thailand. heard stuff there is much wider in variety AND much cheaper. cool!

baby steps. even if that bit wasnt for me or related to me in any way, it still sounds like a good idea to me.


i've realised what i've been hoping for really isnt possible. its ludicrous to expect everyone to suddenly expunge all feelings of angst and upset in such a short time. i spose i should be thankful things are even the way they are now! slowly slowly slowly does it. and hell who knows what'll happen.


first aid ended today. i must say it was pretty interesting. not nearly as boring as i had feared. talking to Clara in the first half of the day was kinda cool too. she's really pretty smart. pity she hasnt mixed with the class much. but then these days who am i to talk? although hopefully that'll change...... :)


*i hope it stayed tucked into the handle bit of your bag. wasnt sure if it'd blow away.

**you. UUUUUU :) but yeah we'll see how long this peace period lasts alright? :D thanks for..... well nothing really :) but yeah u noe what i mean. or do you? whatever!

who noes what's happening tomorrow? some say this, some say that. most ppl dont really have any solid idea.


confusion roams the hearts
of the people in my school
the fear of test results
makes people lose their cool.
before you write them off
as kids as dumb as ants
think about it:
if you were getting back results
you'd be pissing in your pants!


frankly speaking i sorta want them back tomorrow. good or bad they're already marked. may as well find out. but then of course there's that other niggly (cool word!) bit that whines and wants to hide away from reality. doncha just noe.


went for volleyball today... kiiiiiiiiinda weird. since things aren't completely normal. but yeah there it is. i really really sucked big time today. cant remember playing so badly since i started. and i gather fiona at least was getting pissed off. so sorry! it wasnt intentional. thats all i can say in mitigation.


i think its time to end this thing
and head off straight to bed
i'd love to stay up more and talk
but if i do my head
will certainly drop off from my neck
and roll round on the floor
roll and roll and roll it shall
straight out through my door.
that would be most dreadful right?
so off to bed i go.
dont want to be on the floor
looking at my headless shoulders screaming "NO!"


and on that note reminiscent of first aid i leave you. keep the peace and stay true to at least one ideal. you'll be alright.


My resolution and my hands I'll trust.