ok, so there's like SO much to talk about.
(I just got my enlistment letter today. the dumb fucks actually expect me to enlist on the 8th of January next year. YEAH FUCKING RIGHT!! i'll burn my permanent residency and laugh in your faces. it does mean that i gotta leave soon though. OH WELL.)
(i also had a pretty damn fun day with kelli and jacq on Monday. WAY TOO MANY SMOKES THOUGH. felt like shit come tuesday =) but thanks for the experience. again!!!!)
but let's start with school coming to an end.
For me, its a time of unparalleled sadness - and maybe i shldnt be leaving yet, coz i'm still not sure if i spelt that right. but seriously, its the end of an era for me. school for 12 years - its really all i've ever known. school, school, and education: what else has there been?
so its coming to an end, and i'll be embarking on my journey of adulthood too soon for definite sanity. to be honest it scares the piss outta me. But at the end of the day its a necessary departure. all things come to an end, we know. except that this is going to mean the end of an existence as a student. the end of people saying "you've got so much potential" - potential doesnt count for shit in the real world. its what you do, how you perform, whether you can bring out what's supposedly in you that counts. no one gives two jots for "potential".
its also the end of much less dramatic things: the sheer stupidity of playing hockey with FUCKING METAL BARS, the utter neanderthalness of wrestling each other to the ground under the rules of some stupid Indian game (No racism intended! Which, coincidentally, is another thing which ceases to have the significance its had thus far) and so on. Its really the end of the age of innocence, no matter how innoccuous (there i go again i'm sure!) that may sound.
i'll always feel like getting off whatever bus i'm on if i'm going past CJ, just to go into the school and feel the memories crowd in around me; a colossal wave of nostalgia sweeping away whatever's current.
Stupid memories, and the most unlikely of friendships.
Exodus: fucking sonofabitch that i'm still in touch with - a bastard that only I ever seem to trust.
Timotheus: An undoubtedly intelligent man, and a worthy competitor. my only regret is that I NEVER TROUNCED YOU SOUNDLY ENOUGH FOR YOU TO STFU AND STOP BEING A PRETENDER TO THE THRONE THAT IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha. but much love.
Victor: wahhhhhhhhhhhh. ok la ok la. quite a funny guy, with interesting insights too. no need to say more la right?
Fiona: An interesting specimen, who's never been two-faced or dishonest, and always there.
Marissa: sheesh man is anything really necessary? absolutely life-changing (not every day you discover you've got a __i_ is it?!). suffice to say i will always be amazed at how things turned out, considering last year. may not have been the best of ways to wrap up '04, but hey i'm counting on the fact that in the long run it'll just be a little blip on the radar. Oh, and COLLAR PINS AND TAPES FROM PORTUGAL. =)
Phoebe: she's always been there when it felt like no one else was. and for that i'm always grateful.
Clara woon: !!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha a most amusing person, who, to my sorrow, i only recently discovered to be a human worth being friends with. nevertheless, all's well as ends well right?
Grace: only known this year, she's still been intrinsic to '04's warp and weft. the eviction episode, the drama of falling apart in Popular and being in need of an embrace (looking back now, the irony is a killer, really. look at the role reversal!). so yeah. love and thankfulness :)
there's too many for me to continue this and not turn it into a dreary boring entry - this is, of course, assuming it isnt that already. but for Wei Ting, Angelica, Daniel, Nicole, Irwin from T6, Bennett, Eugene, K-su, Rahul, ohhhhhhhhh god the list grows ever longer. Everyone from CJ who i've ever said HI!!!!! to (usually with an accompanying ugly face :D ) i'm gonna miss all of you.
Coming home
i take off not one badge
but two.
the second signifies
The end. The end of an era.
Removing the uniform, I gaze at its blueness
so reviled for so long
and yet now, treasured.
the irony kills, it does
but to what end?
To the purpose of distancing
the true depth of sadness
That wells up within
at the prospect of school
Ending.
Goodbye, school.
(stay tuned for the next entry, where i will RUTHLESSLY SLAUGHTER the contents of Zephyr, and simultaneously slander said contents' authors.)
(I just got my enlistment letter today. the dumb fucks actually expect me to enlist on the 8th of January next year. YEAH FUCKING RIGHT!! i'll burn my permanent residency and laugh in your faces. it does mean that i gotta leave soon though. OH WELL.)
(i also had a pretty damn fun day with kelli and jacq on Monday. WAY TOO MANY SMOKES THOUGH. felt like shit come tuesday =) but thanks for the experience. again!!!!)
but let's start with school coming to an end.
For me, its a time of unparalleled sadness - and maybe i shldnt be leaving yet, coz i'm still not sure if i spelt that right. but seriously, its the end of an era for me. school for 12 years - its really all i've ever known. school, school, and education: what else has there been?
so its coming to an end, and i'll be embarking on my journey of adulthood too soon for definite sanity. to be honest it scares the piss outta me. But at the end of the day its a necessary departure. all things come to an end, we know. except that this is going to mean the end of an existence as a student. the end of people saying "you've got so much potential" - potential doesnt count for shit in the real world. its what you do, how you perform, whether you can bring out what's supposedly in you that counts. no one gives two jots for "potential".
its also the end of much less dramatic things: the sheer stupidity of playing hockey with FUCKING METAL BARS, the utter neanderthalness of wrestling each other to the ground under the rules of some stupid Indian game (No racism intended! Which, coincidentally, is another thing which ceases to have the significance its had thus far) and so on. Its really the end of the age of innocence, no matter how innoccuous (there i go again i'm sure!) that may sound.
i'll always feel like getting off whatever bus i'm on if i'm going past CJ, just to go into the school and feel the memories crowd in around me; a colossal wave of nostalgia sweeping away whatever's current.
Stupid memories, and the most unlikely of friendships.
Exodus: fucking sonofabitch that i'm still in touch with - a bastard that only I ever seem to trust.
Timotheus: An undoubtedly intelligent man, and a worthy competitor. my only regret is that I NEVER TROUNCED YOU SOUNDLY ENOUGH FOR YOU TO STFU AND STOP BEING A PRETENDER TO THE THRONE THAT IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha. but much love.
Victor: wahhhhhhhhhhhh. ok la ok la. quite a funny guy, with interesting insights too. no need to say more la right?
Fiona: An interesting specimen, who's never been two-faced or dishonest, and always there.
Marissa: sheesh man is anything really necessary? absolutely life-changing (not every day you discover you've got a __i_ is it?!). suffice to say i will always be amazed at how things turned out, considering last year. may not have been the best of ways to wrap up '04, but hey i'm counting on the fact that in the long run it'll just be a little blip on the radar. Oh, and COLLAR PINS AND TAPES FROM PORTUGAL. =)
Phoebe: she's always been there when it felt like no one else was. and for that i'm always grateful.
Clara woon: !!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha a most amusing person, who, to my sorrow, i only recently discovered to be a human worth being friends with. nevertheless, all's well as ends well right?
Grace: only known this year, she's still been intrinsic to '04's warp and weft. the eviction episode, the drama of falling apart in Popular and being in need of an embrace (looking back now, the irony is a killer, really. look at the role reversal!). so yeah. love and thankfulness :)
there's too many for me to continue this and not turn it into a dreary boring entry - this is, of course, assuming it isnt that already. but for Wei Ting, Angelica, Daniel, Nicole, Irwin from T6, Bennett, Eugene, K-su, Rahul, ohhhhhhhhh god the list grows ever longer. Everyone from CJ who i've ever said HI!!!!! to (usually with an accompanying ugly face :D ) i'm gonna miss all of you.
Coming home
i take off not one badge
but two.
the second signifies
The end. The end of an era.
Removing the uniform, I gaze at its blueness
so reviled for so long
and yet now, treasured.
the irony kills, it does
but to what end?
To the purpose of distancing
the true depth of sadness
That wells up within
at the prospect of school
Ending.
Goodbye, school.
(stay tuned for the next entry, where i will RUTHLESSLY SLAUGHTER the contents of Zephyr, and simultaneously slander said contents' authors.)
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