once i had a bag of weed
but then it disappeared
thank God it then did turn up safely.
not in my room as i had feared.






i've spent pretty much the whole weekend thinking about nothing else. probably because next week's the last week of school ever, and it seems these days like school is the only thing which keeps us talking or in touch at all.
but i digress.
its funny how many fantastic memories can have accumulated (double C?) in such a short span of time. but to me, on the whole they add up to this: any friendship where you can share a sweater in a fucking cold dark room without having to even begin to worry about stupid ideas forming is one which we should fight to keep. any friendship where one person can say "i dont trust anyone" to which the other says "oh. its hard to be told that you're not trusted?" and the first responds "oh i trust you completely. God i just honestly thought of you as myself" is worth keeping. any friendship which is as weird, strange, and wonderful as this one has been is worth preserving.
and any friendship which, when gone awry somewhat, causes this much distress, is worth fixing.



i dont even know if you want to keep reading =) this much sappiness.... its unnatural. (Double N there for sure!)



its not so much that i'm worried, because i'm sure that things can heal - that's not impossible. (I found it extremely ironic that the conversation which restored my faith revolved around the potential collapse of one of your relationships - also particularly amusing that i was on the verge on congratulating you on what i thought was its success). This's just one of those things where it would really really be atrocious if all the time its just confusion on both parts.




Naturally, i could be being colosally delusional here, and the desire to continue could be entirely one-sided. but i don't think so.



some of the time today i spent thinking back, and some of the best things i can remember are when nothing was actually happening. the scene was just a long pointless bus ride, or an extended session at a sandwich joint - cookies included, naturally - or canine endeavours.
one that stands out particularly is, of course, Portugal, and the possibility of watching matches before everyone else in the country. Oh, and the number 26. =)



i'm sure some of what's happened is my fault - if i could take back my stupid joke i would, and maybe then everything would be alright. in the end though i think its all a big misunderstanding... and we've gone past those before right? reading your essays, for example? :)



i've believed in it as strongly as you have, and its never even begun to crumble. never will.








Alright that's enough. The pathos begins to smother.



Stay tuned for When Timothy Reminisces: Part 2 - When I was a baby, born at a very young age.......



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I am absolutely elated that John Howard has won "a historical fourth term" in the Australian government. Now what would be nice would be if Bush trounces Kerry at the polls.

Anyone catch the weekend's debate? Leave a tag, with your polite but honest opinions =)


Personally i think Kerry and Bush both did pretty alright. Naturally i favour (perhaps "favor" is more appropriate in this context) Bush as the winner, because i WANT Bush to be the eventual winner. Kerry did show up pretty decent though, so all props to him.
He really did suck on the abortion issue tho.
One thing i would've changed vis a vis Bush: I wouldn't have done the "It simply isn't credible" thing too many times. Once repeated too often, it (dont kill me!!) Simply Isn't Credible.


:)