slip inside the in-betweens
notice there the dark unseens.
they stalk these lands so quietly
dead men's bones gnaw violently
while everywhere they seem to pledge
on every stone, rock, tree and ledge
"Never i shall tyrant be"

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nullity
the dark emptiness that hovers
waiting, ever waiting,
at the centre of all
the abnegation of existence itself.
the futility of it all;
like a blind spider in the uncaring earth,
breeding, ever breeding, but to no good end,
so does the uselessness and emptiness
at the very core of being
hold us all in thrall
thrashing about aimlessly
like that blind spider
burning up quickly
ever so quickly
like moths in a flame.


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today i seem inspired
quite possibly quite fired
up to do some good old rhyming stuff
some of it will doubtless be
tales of woe and misery
others will, like this, be fluff.

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the ups and downs of life
grab you by the throat, throttling, and almost never letting go
one minute one seems to be beyond all possible sadness
the next minute, like an overwhelming urge to cry, one drowns in woe.

like dear Plath with her head in an oven
i feel the noxious gasses of life
choking out all of the feelings
which are otherwise inimical to strife.

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unlimited eventualities. that's what i'm feeling now. life seems like it can go in any direction from here. who noes? come 2005 i might find myself living in China!!

but enough of that. feels sllllllightly different to be 18. but honestly not much really.

shout outs to those who gave me stuff!! thanks mar vic n fio for the CD. its really fantastic. and grace, the wrist thing is really damn cute :) its busy glowing right now. thanks :)
aaron for Parachutes. another fucking good album. thanks a bunch. jack for the shirt. element's a good brand ;) dawn for the chocolates. i swear to god, its a conspiracy to make me fat :) steph! i love the bracelet. thanks a mil :D charlene, rachel n andrew: thanks for the coldplay DVD. who wlda thought they'd do Trouble all punk rock eh? :D

thanks to all others too numerous to name. love yas all.



its funny how we're termed creatures of free will and yet we have no control over our fears. completely baseless, that's what most of them are.

and yet they remain. is there, then, some cause for concern in some cases?

best not to worry :)




apologies to those as are owed them.




i really dig Eminem n D12's new song. its great :)


ladies and gentlemen
that is my time
no need to start throwing
nickles and dimes

i'll take my leave now
depart from the stage
i'll leave you lot here
to find your own cage

i'll not build it for you.