been a while since i was here
now all i feel is fear
i cant remember
i feel dismembered
my arm falls on the floor
and there i let it lie
my eyeballs drop beside it
my brain falls out
i die.

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so, little people, how goes all in that sick, sad little psuedo reality that you pathetic losers insist on calling life?

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sooner than later they'll be throwing quarters at you on the stage.


but then again who gives a shit?





its been a fun week.... parents left on Tuesday and my sis is already in HK. so i went to crash at aaron's house on Tuesday. the week's activities went something like this : wake up. have breakfast. have a beer. have lunch. lots of chess/pool. work out in the gym. go to town, meet michelle n jack. come back to Bedok, buy beer. go skate. get completely smashed. go home.

it was cool!

oh, an interesting fact: the cheapest beer (as far as we know) is Foster's! coz there's no import tax and all that.


well, im a bona fide (check a dictionary) skater now. and yet i dont own a pair of skate shoes. how ironic huh?

unlike others who do, and yet dont skate. i still say its a poseur thing (to be honest, even spelling poseur the right way is a poseur thing in my opinion. which sounds completely stupid i know). to me a parallel would be carrying around a camel saddle in Singapore. aint no fucking camels here! so the same shld go for skate shoes. coz by wearing 'em you're telling the world that you're something you're not. the malay skaters are the worst man. they absolutely detest the fakes. which's weird, coz its the malays that do it the most. saw one guy get beat up once over it. i kinda feel the same way. the worst are the fat kids wearing skate shoes. you so KNOW they dont skate. they couldnt ollie if their life depended on it!
the other thing abt local skaters is just an overall Singaporean thing. they are so FUCKING conscious of themselves! you CANT be a skater and give a fuck abt what other people think. its just wrong. you should see 'em down at Dhoby Ghaut...... all dressed up.... skate shoes, skate shirt, skate jeans, expensive jeans, hair all slicked up and gelled, an arm bracelet or ten. that's not how it works! i mean sure, if it was just one or two guys then there's nothing wrong with it. that'd just be how they were different. but skaters dont give a damn abt how they look! that's why so many of 'em are into punk and grunge. its the same vibe.







Geddit?

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another thing: some things this year just aint what they were cracked up to be. things are gonna be very different next year.


EXO PASSED HIS SUPPS. thank GOD for that. woulda been hell in some ways otherwise.



lets see.......


's matter of fact, exo's in my house right now. has been for the last two days. along with pei wen (currently destroying my kitchen) and some friend of their's. kinda weird :)


fuck this.