hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
ha bloody ha again.
the ridiculousness of it all just blows me away.
its 3.40 or so in the morning. only one person's online that im talking to rite now; avoided everyone else that i saw. (cmon man my status set to "Away" doesnt mean ANYTHING!!!when im not there i TURN OFF MY COM) to u: -wink- when u read this. but quit replying so damn slow!!
same old shit: stuff i dont wanna noe, stuff i dont wanna hear. ppl whining n all that crap
apologies, accusations, excuses.
oh yeah. i kinda think its totally dead now. well well who woulda known?? two days and its K.O'ed already. if only i clda done it sooner!
** (not sure if im using the right amount of stars :D ) im not pissed or upset or anything
today has been rather marvelous. not feeling that same old agony n confusion n pain n vagueness and sense of being lost-within-it-all has been of utmost refreshment.
and yet, to be perfectly honest, its really still there. i totally miss her and the feeling. being without it makes me feel lost.
cmon man who the fuck am i trying to kid here?
wldnt it be weird if frm now on my only communication between me n others was our individual blogs?
++ it amuses me how names of everyone but one individual are mentioned in various blogs. like heeeeeeeeeello we noe already++
y'noe wat i can feel bitchiness overtaking me already. guess we ALL have our Hyde side (regardless of gender hey? -wink- :D ) so my apologies to ya'll
im really NOT angry or upset. at least not much. suffice to say that im feeling VERY cynical n jaded right now.
one part of me wishes i clda sorted this out a whole lot sooner. but then the other part, the much less bitter part of me realises that without this currently-ebbing-away feeling i wld have missed out on a whole lotta highly enjoyable, wonderful and life-changing events. n deep down i noe i'd be a much smaller n much more worse off person without that. so im thankful.
ppl tell me that something isnt happening. but i think it is. well good luck to ya.
noticed how tonight lots of my sentences are one liners?
like this?
and this one?
and this one too?
getting the picture??
spose its symbolic of how im feeling now. detached n decentralised n all. outta wack basically. i'll havve to take time to adjust to this new state of mind. which will still, most likely, go away within the next several days.
gonna be weird for someone who's reading this! to think a couple of days back u n i were all worried n stuff. guess THAT'S no longer a problem huh
y'noe wat. time a lil boy like me went to bed already.
argh fuck bed la. add a lil more.
im sorry again if reading this makes me come across as a bitch. im really feeling fine n im really not pissed off.
there we go. NOW i'll go to sleep. 'sides char's going offline too n she's the only one awake anyhow!!
gnite world. you're a real bitch sometimes. but hey i love ya. 'sides im LIVING on u :D
ha bloody ha again.
the ridiculousness of it all just blows me away.
its 3.40 or so in the morning. only one person's online that im talking to rite now; avoided everyone else that i saw. (cmon man my status set to "Away" doesnt mean ANYTHING!!!when im not there i TURN OFF MY COM) to u: -wink- when u read this. but quit replying so damn slow!!
same old shit: stuff i dont wanna noe, stuff i dont wanna hear. ppl whining n all that crap
apologies, accusations, excuses.
oh yeah. i kinda think its totally dead now. well well who woulda known?? two days and its K.O'ed already. if only i clda done it sooner!
** (not sure if im using the right amount of stars :D ) im not pissed or upset or anything
today has been rather marvelous. not feeling that same old agony n confusion n pain n vagueness and sense of being lost-within-it-all has been of utmost refreshment.
and yet, to be perfectly honest, its really still there. i totally miss her and the feeling. being without it makes me feel lost.
cmon man who the fuck am i trying to kid here?
wldnt it be weird if frm now on my only communication between me n others was our individual blogs?
++ it amuses me how names of everyone but one individual are mentioned in various blogs. like heeeeeeeeeello we noe already++
y'noe wat i can feel bitchiness overtaking me already. guess we ALL have our Hyde side (regardless of gender hey? -wink- :D ) so my apologies to ya'll
im really NOT angry or upset. at least not much. suffice to say that im feeling VERY cynical n jaded right now.
one part of me wishes i clda sorted this out a whole lot sooner. but then the other part, the much less bitter part of me realises that without this currently-ebbing-away feeling i wld have missed out on a whole lotta highly enjoyable, wonderful and life-changing events. n deep down i noe i'd be a much smaller n much more worse off person without that. so im thankful.
ppl tell me that something isnt happening. but i think it is. well good luck to ya.
noticed how tonight lots of my sentences are one liners?
like this?
and this one?
and this one too?
getting the picture??
spose its symbolic of how im feeling now. detached n decentralised n all. outta wack basically. i'll havve to take time to adjust to this new state of mind. which will still, most likely, go away within the next several days.
gonna be weird for someone who's reading this! to think a couple of days back u n i were all worried n stuff. guess THAT'S no longer a problem huh
y'noe wat. time a lil boy like me went to bed already.
argh fuck bed la. add a lil more.
im sorry again if reading this makes me come across as a bitch. im really feeling fine n im really not pissed off.
there we go. NOW i'll go to sleep. 'sides char's going offline too n she's the only one awake anyhow!!
gnite world. you're a real bitch sometimes. but hey i love ya. 'sides im LIVING on u :D
posted by Timothy at 6:20 am
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