i have come to a conclusion
(sounds grand doesnt it. fuck all of you bitches)
there has NEVER been anything, there currently IS nothing and there will never BE anything.
its dying slowly la. never thought it would. but it is.
like praise the lord alreaddy.

another thing: i really dont think much of friendships anymore. lookin arnd, things that arent ok if its me are nothing less than dandy if its someone else. and yet apparently its nothing at all. now all of you out there are probably kinda confused. good. keep it that way. and dont bother asking me whats going on. coz frankly i dont give a fuck and i will NOT tell you.

contrary to what you MAY be thinking (unlikely as the possibility of you thinking may be) i am not in a bad mood. just a lil let down by several people, several things, several eventualities. surprised things have turned out the way they have, n surprised people are the way they are.


*interesting conversation going on while im doing this. if u noe who u are, -wink- *

fuck the whole thing. it's all a bloody waste of time anw.

---intuitive people amongst you may be guessing as to what im talking abt. well, isnt it obvious? im talking abt studying for my promos! suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuure---




isn't bluntness sweet?


i'm gonna come outta this entry looking (or reading rather) like im an absolute bitch. well there are two ways to look at that. Number 1: i AM an absolute bitch. now, as there are countless advocates of this idea, i shall not elaborate. and Number 2: Im just letting off a lil steam and things are getting to me. believe it or not this IS the truth. (well u cld be a nit-picker and say both options are applicable. which is true no doubt. but get outta my face if thats all you have to say. coz i aint listening)


it really is strange how things are outta wack. i really dont noe what on earth (or what on EARTH as i read in a message from someone today) is wrong with everything. stuff is funny.

we never really know where we stand with our friends do we? i used to think i did at least with a select one or two. but none of it's true it seems.

lets do something cheerful.

Friends

People who you hang out with
people who you love
people with skin real dark
and with skin just like a dove

people who you grow to trust
people who u shouldnt
people u can tell anything
people who you wouldnt

basically im talking abt
two different kinds of things
one kind has horns and a tail n stuff
the other sort has wings

i know for SURE i have ONE sort
but which one i shall not tell
(i'll give u a lil hint tho.
I think they're all from hell)


k so im sorry. that was SPOSED to be nice.

now ur probably wondering why im sounding so fucked up. ('s matter of fact someone's asking me right now if im feeling fucked) the answer is, believe it or not, no. i'm just feeling totally numb abt everything. losing faith in one friend, losing faith in a lot of things to tell the truth. basically losing faith. and there's really no reason for me to be losing faith in this friend at all! its totally unrelated to ANYTHING else. bizzzzaaaarrrrre indeed.

*interesting point - sometimes its better not to know some things y'noe wat i mean? take blogs for example. they quite often have things in them that id really rather not noe. hmmmm *

oh well. thats enough for now. depressing as it is already. although im fine :D

tata darlings